everyone at home is asleep.
i just wrote a really mean post and then deleted it before it got too angry.
i don't want people to talk ABOUT me, i want them to talk TO me.
i'm not dead guys. so don't sit around and talk about how cool i was. i'm in Istanbul, thinking everyone, with a few exceptions, has forgotten about me b/c no one makes any effort.
and it's so hard to think about my friends at home b/c i feel betrayed by the dorm the the upperclassmen shit, like i don't have a home, and i'm realizing that my friendships with people is obviously just pointless. i've streched myself so thin for all of my friends only to be "too much effort" when i'm gone for a month.
yeah, i guess it was really easy to be friends with me. i would do anything for anyone. i'll come visit you in your room, down the hall, or even drive 3 hours to visit you the weekend before i leave at UNCA. at home, i sacraficed so much for the people i love and didn't really get that much when i needed it.
things are going to be SO different when i come home. I don't know if I should just ignore everyone like they have been ignoring me. it's hard to deal with issues like this.
study abroad, i dare you.
i don't want people to talk ABOUT me, i want them to talk TO me.
i'm not dead guys. so don't sit around and talk about how cool i was. i'm in Istanbul, thinking everyone, with a few exceptions, has forgotten about me b/c no one makes any effort.
and it's so hard to think about my friends at home b/c i feel betrayed by the dorm the the upperclassmen shit, like i don't have a home, and i'm realizing that my friendships with people is obviously just pointless. i've streched myself so thin for all of my friends only to be "too much effort" when i'm gone for a month.
yeah, i guess it was really easy to be friends with me. i would do anything for anyone. i'll come visit you in your room, down the hall, or even drive 3 hours to visit you the weekend before i leave at UNCA. at home, i sacraficed so much for the people i love and didn't really get that much when i needed it.
things are going to be SO different when i come home. I don't know if I should just ignore everyone like they have been ignoring me. it's hard to deal with issues like this.
study abroad, i dare you.