i feel this way when i wake up.

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for the past few days, i wake up in the sunlight. i sit up, look around bewidered; i feel like i am missing something. but it's not me in greensboro, it's me waking up next to someone. it's weird. before i came, i only had male friends, with a few exceptions-but the majority of my common following were male. and now, i havne't even talked to one in a week, and that was corey on the phone. there are some turkish men that stare at me, on busses and in streets/restaurants, but that's nothing. nothing.

i want to wake up with an arm around me.
i want to be able to kiss and snuggle in the sun in the morning.
i want to be someone's sunrise.

obviously, this is growing up.