Love
I thought I knew what love was. I thought I was in love at one point. But I don't think I ever fully understood it and I guess I still don't completely. It's such an abstract feeling so it's hard to define. But there's no need for a single definition. Not when I have my own. I hope that someday I can have the opportunity to unconditionally show my love everyday for someone. Like what my Nana does for me. It's strange how I find it hard to show too much emotion with family, but I've actually gotten better lately. But I know whether I show it or not, I do love my family even if they are a pack of nuts as they call themselves. And I know I cannot wait until I encounter a real, romantic love. I want to be able to wake up every morning to the same man, knowing that this will last because of the love we share. I don't expect a perfect marriage, but I want to be with someone who I can fight with one day and then make up knowing that it was just a rough day and not hold it against them. I want to be with someone who I can just be my weird self around, tell them anything knowing I won't be judged. And be with someone who appreciates the small things like I do! I definitely search for someone who wants to do for others, who wants to have a healthy family, and who wants to go to bed every night knowing that any relationship in life is not perfect, but are happy with what they bargained for. I just cannot wait for the day that we bring our first puppy home, buy a home together, adopt/have kids, do things as a family, interact with other family, and just to share such a deep connection with someone that will never ever break no matter what. I think that is something we all live for, but is very hard to find. I hope I can put myself out there, show what I have to offer, and hope that someone is willing to accept it all for what it is and nothing less, nothing more. Again, I don't want or expect perfection, but I do want to fall in love. I want to love being with family members, and I want to have children that I would do anything for. All we really need is Love. Sounds cliche, but it's true. It's what everyone battles over, dreams about, sings about, writes about, it's all around. But only some of us are willing to embrace it. And I think I definitely am ready. Are you?