No longer a teen.
My birthday was 5 days ago. Just in case you didn't know. My party was awesome. Browned out, but nothing to worry about. I'm so glad I have such awesome friends here. They really know how to throw a party, and make me feel comfortable at the same time. I can only hope that I keep these friends for the rest of my life!
Turning 20 has been...an experience. I feel the same...but at the same time completely different. I can't describe it, but I feel...more comfortable in myself? It may be because of these past few days, but I do feel slightly more mature. Not enough to change who I am entirely, but how I view the world. Things I thought were a big deal before, aren't so much now. I feel open to new experiences that I wouldn't have been before. I can't say that I don't regret any of my life, because I do. It's inevitable. You're not always completely happy with every single choice you make. But that fact is, you can't go back. The choices I regret have in a way shaped who I am.
I admit, I haven't always been my own biggest fan. More often than not I find myself to be my own worst critic. Up and down goes my self-esteem. I'm actually kind of getting sick of it. Insecurities plague everyone, but mine are worse...because they're happening to me. No! Just kidding! Haha! Ok...maybe not the best joke, but hey, if you can't poke fun at yourself, you're in for a long ride. But seriously, I sometimes wish I could change my personality, to be more outgoing, funny, or just better in general. Maybe that's needed to become a better person as a whole.
The fact is, I don't feel all that different. Becoming 20 didn't come with some epiphany that I must suddenly be serious, stoic, and concentrate on work 24/7. Actually, it's the complete opposite. I feel a bit more free. I want to have more fun. It's just the first week and any of this can change, but I think I like how I feel as a former teenager.
Turning 20 has been...an experience. I feel the same...but at the same time completely different. I can't describe it, but I feel...more comfortable in myself? It may be because of these past few days, but I do feel slightly more mature. Not enough to change who I am entirely, but how I view the world. Things I thought were a big deal before, aren't so much now. I feel open to new experiences that I wouldn't have been before. I can't say that I don't regret any of my life, because I do. It's inevitable. You're not always completely happy with every single choice you make. But that fact is, you can't go back. The choices I regret have in a way shaped who I am.
I admit, I haven't always been my own biggest fan. More often than not I find myself to be my own worst critic. Up and down goes my self-esteem. I'm actually kind of getting sick of it. Insecurities plague everyone, but mine are worse...because they're happening to me. No! Just kidding! Haha! Ok...maybe not the best joke, but hey, if you can't poke fun at yourself, you're in for a long ride. But seriously, I sometimes wish I could change my personality, to be more outgoing, funny, or just better in general. Maybe that's needed to become a better person as a whole.
The fact is, I don't feel all that different. Becoming 20 didn't come with some epiphany that I must suddenly be serious, stoic, and concentrate on work 24/7. Actually, it's the complete opposite. I feel a bit more free. I want to have more fun. It's just the first week and any of this can change, but I think I like how I feel as a former teenager.