I swear to god
Its always me...Always me...
Did you ever wish that you were someone other than you were...I do all the time...I wish that I was someone that people liked, someone that people wanted to hang out with not someone that could just get kicked to the curb by her friend well at least people she thought were her friends...I hates being the "well if i could invite you i would" person, I hate being the "well i'll call you if we do anything person" I hate hate hate it....am i really that bad of a person??? Do i deserve any of that crap...I spend most of my time being the fucking person that people go to when they have problems, the person who gives out fucking advice to every person that asks for it, the person who gives up her free fucking time to listen to you bitch about your problems with all kinds of situations...and what do i get for being the good friend who is always there when i need here, listens when i talk to her, doesnt judge me....What the FUCK do i get??? NOTHING...a bit fat NOTHING is what i get and im just sick of it...Ive been disappointed, kicked in the teeth, kicked to the curb, let down, and whatever the hell else you wanted to call it in too many times in my life...If people dont start to change i'm going to and im going to let all my friends go and keep the ones who I know love me and like me for who i am...that im not just another person that they can use and hang out with whenever they feel like it....Im gonna to move on with my life and leave you behind because apparently you dont need me or want me so i feel the same way about you....
I just want to be home now, with my mommy, curled up on the couch eating ice cream right now...thats all i want...i dont want to hurt anymore...
Did you ever wish that you were someone other than you were...I do all the time...I wish that I was someone that people liked, someone that people wanted to hang out with not someone that could just get kicked to the curb by her friend well at least people she thought were her friends...I hates being the "well if i could invite you i would" person, I hate being the "well i'll call you if we do anything person" I hate hate hate it....am i really that bad of a person??? Do i deserve any of that crap...I spend most of my time being the fucking person that people go to when they have problems, the person who gives out fucking advice to every person that asks for it, the person who gives up her free fucking time to listen to you bitch about your problems with all kinds of situations...and what do i get for being the good friend who is always there when i need here, listens when i talk to her, doesnt judge me....What the FUCK do i get??? NOTHING...a bit fat NOTHING is what i get and im just sick of it...Ive been disappointed, kicked in the teeth, kicked to the curb, let down, and whatever the hell else you wanted to call it in too many times in my life...If people dont start to change i'm going to and im going to let all my friends go and keep the ones who I know love me and like me for who i am...that im not just another person that they can use and hang out with whenever they feel like it....Im gonna to move on with my life and leave you behind because apparently you dont need me or want me so i feel the same way about you....
I just want to be home now, with my mommy, curled up on the couch eating ice cream right now...thats all i want...i dont want to hurt anymore...