Thoughts from Colorado
So I got up this morning to tend to Biz - she hadn't seen me last night since I got home so late - she was so excited to see me. Normally she will flash a smile in the morning but this was beyond your typical smile. She waved her arms and just beamed at me. It made my morning.
Being in Colorado alone was different than going with Val and Biz. I got a real chance to check some things out and I'm even more certain in my resolve to stay in Chicago. Although Colorado has grown a lot, it is still the same and everything that made me want to leave originally is still there. It boils down to friends and family and I can't live my life for other people (well except for Biz). This was also the first time that Colorado didn't feel like home. Chicago doesn't really feel like home either though. I guess I kinda feel homeless right now.
I spent Labor Day with one of my best friends from high school. We talked for quite a while. Back in the day, we managed to get into a lot of trouble together. We were talking about some people we used to know and I was embarrassed to find out that I couldn't remember the names of 2 guys I had "dated" back then. I wasn't a very good person back then.
This is also the first time I've gone for a visit that I haven't gained weight. In fact, I lost weight! Something is up with my appetite - it's gone. I just don't feel like eating. I'm down to 164. So that's 10 pounds down, only 24 more to go and only 8 pounds to go to my 10% goal! I doubt that I'll keep up not eating much but time will tell. I've got class 3 nights a week now and I'm there from 5:30 to 8:30 and I typically won't get home until 9 or later. 3 nights a week, dinner is going to be hard to come by.
There's more but I think it's a post for another day, possibly under a filter.
Being in Colorado alone was different than going with Val and Biz. I got a real chance to check some things out and I'm even more certain in my resolve to stay in Chicago. Although Colorado has grown a lot, it is still the same and everything that made me want to leave originally is still there. It boils down to friends and family and I can't live my life for other people (well except for Biz). This was also the first time that Colorado didn't feel like home. Chicago doesn't really feel like home either though. I guess I kinda feel homeless right now.
I spent Labor Day with one of my best friends from high school. We talked for quite a while. Back in the day, we managed to get into a lot of trouble together. We were talking about some people we used to know and I was embarrassed to find out that I couldn't remember the names of 2 guys I had "dated" back then. I wasn't a very good person back then.
This is also the first time I've gone for a visit that I haven't gained weight. In fact, I lost weight! Something is up with my appetite - it's gone. I just don't feel like eating. I'm down to 164. So that's 10 pounds down, only 24 more to go and only 8 pounds to go to my 10% goal! I doubt that I'll keep up not eating much but time will tell. I've got class 3 nights a week now and I'm there from 5:30 to 8:30 and I typically won't get home until 9 or later. 3 nights a week, dinner is going to be hard to come by.
There's more but I think it's a post for another day, possibly under a filter.