Nov 13, 2004 19:35
Tuesday, almost two weeks ago, my grandmother went to live at the University Park nursing home. It was a nice facility, but it was very difficult for our family to get accustomed to not having her here. I knew that it was the proper place so that she could receive better care around the clock. I visited with her briefly that night and then saw her again Thursday before work. Then, I stopped by and stayed for awhile after SATs on Saturday where we just talked. That day, my mom, sister, aunt and cousins also visited which I know made her so happy.
Ever since then, this week has been so rough on me and my family. On Monday, she was walking to the bathroom and lost her balance. Her head hit the floor which caused internal bleeding around her brain. She also had a huge cut on the back of her head. So, she went unconscious and was taken to the hospital. My mom called me after I had gotten out of school and told me and Erin what had happened. We had to wait for my dad to pick us up since my mom did not think I was okay to drive and waiting for him seemed like the longest wait of my life. She was in a coma, but we went in and saw her. It was the strangest thing because she’s there, but totally not in another way. We went again on Tuesday and visited with her. That night, I wrote her a letter because there was so much that I wanted to tell her. I made sure to tell her how much I loved her and missed her. That day I was so upset, but I talked to her even though she couldn’t respond and didn’t even know anyone was there. She was just sort of sleeping. Wednesday, Erin and I went back up there after school and stayed for a long time talking to her and also my mom. That day , Dale and Sandra didn’t think she would make it much longer. We were called early Thursday morning by the nurses and told that she had passed away. Ever since the start of the week, we had expected it. But, it has been so difficult for me to deal with. I am so glad that I got three years to spend with her. Every now and then she would get on my nerves and of course I thought she was crazy sometimes. I would never had gotten to know her as well as I did were it not for those three great years. I know that she really enjoyed living with us. I think it was all in a perfect plan because everyone got to visit with her lots her last week here because she had just moved to the nursing home and they just wanted to come and see her. I’m really glad that she didn’t suffer either. Farmor, Grandpa, Kim and Michael came last night and stayed the night so that they could be with us today too. It was nice to know that they were thinking about us and could be here.
Yesterday, I went to Dale’s house where we just hung out with the family, then went to visitation at night. Then, today I ran the 8K because Dad, Benton and I had already signed up. It turned out nicely, a little break from the trying week. After that, we came home and showered and went back to Dale’s before we headed over to the cemetery. It was nice to see family that I hadn’t seen in awhile and also friends to let you know they cared. Now, everyone has left our house and it just feels so empty. Everything just seems to have happened so fast, I mean just a week ago I was talking to her about running and voting and everything else. Erin, Mom and I were the last ones with her last night and it was the hardest thing I have ever had to do-say goodbye. I loved her so much and words can’t describe how much I will miss her.