unexplainable feelings inside of me.......

[jkearney196]

well right now i feel like complete shit... and honestly i feel as if i am talking to myself, cuz liek no one other then megan reads my lj's.... ofcoarse u mean the world to me megan and dont think its bad ur the only one but sorry...

i feel as if even my small requests are to much for this relationship at times... why must she keep on smoking? why must we fight so much and argue about dumb ass shit all the time... god i could really use a vacation from my life right now.. i wanna take megan and run away to some hidden island and be alone for weeks and days on end... god i miss how life use to be back then when she made me quiet and wen the fights were so small and immature... now i am affraid of losing it all cuz of some stupid ass fight...

i feel as if i have lost all of my friends and everyone who i care about... i feel so alone... sorry but i cant help it... i feel like shit and that does not even explain it fully....

Can something or someone help me? please god help me.............

sorry for like complaining the whole time... sorry guys

g2g and hide somemore in the corner from the world... i love you megan. muah