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i miss my girlfriend. shes not my girlfriend. but i miss her. i texted her again and i shouldnt have. i told myself i wouldnt. i find myself thinking aobut how to say something or how to do something to get it back. i wonder what it would take. and i also wonder if i have what it takes to put it on the line really. i gotta put some serious vulnerability on the table to just admit to her how i feel and that i want her back. it would have to be done carefully. i miss a lot at night when im getting into bed. we were terrific sleepers, i mean actually just sleeping in bed together was terrifice. the first thing i've thought of every morning since we broke up was missing her.
and around and around the coin flips for the rest of everything
i started working at O'Charlies again tonight. that was good getting out and social and productive during the vacation. there were two really cute girls, though i couldn't have dated either. why is it so difficult for me to love, and so difficult for me to accept love.
thats the thing that keeps driving me back to emily. i keep worrying that i was wrong about some stuff. that i might have had an awakening. because when a week later when my mom flipped out on me she said a lot of the same stuff.
and around and around the coin flips for the rest of everything
i started working at O'Charlies again tonight. that was good getting out and social and productive during the vacation. there were two really cute girls, though i couldn't have dated either. why is it so difficult for me to love, and so difficult for me to accept love.
thats the thing that keeps driving me back to emily. i keep worrying that i was wrong about some stuff. that i might have had an awakening. because when a week later when my mom flipped out on me she said a lot of the same stuff.