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it is my birthday. im 26. i feel i should stand in the mirror and question whats new and improved.
not a whole hell of a lot has changed. im still the same person. i still live with my big fat red cat that keeps me sane. i still work at the same old job. i still would like to lose a few pounds. i still miss my best friend everyday. i still reside in 'ol bayview. i still hate my boobs and think they are too big. (i still think about cutting them off!) my favorite smells and tastes and sounds havent changed. i still love to take walks to south shore park. i still check my email 20 times a day. i still want to live in the desert. i still love to drink lots of red wine until i pass out. i still have a temper.
what is new? i no longer wonder what i want to be in life. i know i will never know. i have reached a point that i have become satisfied as long as i am able to pay my bills and have a few extra dollars in my pocket. i moved in with my boyfriend (now fiancee) of two years. i got engaged. i own a diamond. i started a second job back in the hair business, just not doing hair. i eat meat off the bone. i hiked the entire grand canyon in three days. i opened a savings account. i ate three whole shrimp. ive learned to honk my car horn when i get mad at other drivers, and not feel bad. i am able to drink hard alcohol again.
why does it take a birthday to reflect on these issues? why do i have to be another year older to remember what has changed in me over the last year?
god, i dont feel 26.
not a whole hell of a lot has changed. im still the same person. i still live with my big fat red cat that keeps me sane. i still work at the same old job. i still would like to lose a few pounds. i still miss my best friend everyday. i still reside in 'ol bayview. i still hate my boobs and think they are too big. (i still think about cutting them off!) my favorite smells and tastes and sounds havent changed. i still love to take walks to south shore park. i still check my email 20 times a day. i still want to live in the desert. i still love to drink lots of red wine until i pass out. i still have a temper.
what is new? i no longer wonder what i want to be in life. i know i will never know. i have reached a point that i have become satisfied as long as i am able to pay my bills and have a few extra dollars in my pocket. i moved in with my boyfriend (now fiancee) of two years. i got engaged. i own a diamond. i started a second job back in the hair business, just not doing hair. i eat meat off the bone. i hiked the entire grand canyon in three days. i opened a savings account. i ate three whole shrimp. ive learned to honk my car horn when i get mad at other drivers, and not feel bad. i am able to drink hard alcohol again.
why does it take a birthday to reflect on these issues? why do i have to be another year older to remember what has changed in me over the last year?
god, i dont feel 26.