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Alright well time for a realish update.
So, Art school was great.
Fuck I need to get this off my chest really quick and you'll all hate me for being vague, but I hate feeling replaced. I hate when someone tells me they like me and then finds someone else to like, even if I am involved with someone else. It's just not a good feeling to know that I'm expendable.
Okay anyways, art school. Really awesome. I don't know what to say. So here's me struggling. I learned a lot. Had a blast. Made like 20 friends who are really awesome who I will most likely never see again... I dunnoh. I guess I'm actually really sad about this. For four of the longest weeks ever, this was my life. I practicly lived with these people. Now it's all gone. And I know things change and that this kind of stuff happens a lot anyways, but shit, it's still really hard to think about. Plus it reminds me how a lot of my graduate friends are leaving. How Angela is leaving. How I really like her right now. How I have a great time with her and I really care about her and how I might not see her for months and how by then everything will have changed. And I accept that and I want to make the most of the time we have left. Even if it means it hurts more when she leaves because I'd rather have good memories.
So yeah thursday was the first thursday exibition for my class. It was really awesome. It sucked at first because no one looked at my peice and because my dad was late and because none of my friends showed up. Which also means probably like three of you are actually reading this. Oh well. Just more reason for me to keep up my written journal. No one reads that.
I have pictures but I don't have space on JJUNK to post them right now.
Well damn, I really want to tell you all what's been up the last four weeks but I'm in a bad mood so I guess I can't.
Do me a favor and you all have a great day.
So, Art school was great.
Fuck I need to get this off my chest really quick and you'll all hate me for being vague, but I hate feeling replaced. I hate when someone tells me they like me and then finds someone else to like, even if I am involved with someone else. It's just not a good feeling to know that I'm expendable.
Okay anyways, art school. Really awesome. I don't know what to say. So here's me struggling. I learned a lot. Had a blast. Made like 20 friends who are really awesome who I will most likely never see again... I dunnoh. I guess I'm actually really sad about this. For four of the longest weeks ever, this was my life. I practicly lived with these people. Now it's all gone. And I know things change and that this kind of stuff happens a lot anyways, but shit, it's still really hard to think about. Plus it reminds me how a lot of my graduate friends are leaving. How Angela is leaving. How I really like her right now. How I have a great time with her and I really care about her and how I might not see her for months and how by then everything will have changed. And I accept that and I want to make the most of the time we have left. Even if it means it hurts more when she leaves because I'd rather have good memories.
So yeah thursday was the first thursday exibition for my class. It was really awesome. It sucked at first because no one looked at my peice and because my dad was late and because none of my friends showed up. Which also means probably like three of you are actually reading this. Oh well. Just more reason for me to keep up my written journal. No one reads that.
I have pictures but I don't have space on JJUNK to post them right now.
Well damn, I really want to tell you all what's been up the last four weeks but I'm in a bad mood so I guess I can't.
Do me a favor and you all have a great day.