lonely

[jjkjandliam]

So Kelly and I went to DC's with a couple of friends and we had a great time! However, watching all the couples on the dance floor slow dancing made me miss Jon VERY much! I love going out and having fun, but it seems like part of me isn't there and that's not fun. He should be there with me having fun and enjoying himself. In ways it just didn't seem right that I should be going out and having fun while he is overseas and can't really have fun while he is there. Well, not the fun that he would like anyway. We got all dressed up and Kelly took pictures of me to send to Jon and I am glad for that because he asks me for pictures, but a little voice in my head says "why bother getting all dressed up because the one you are dressing up for isn't even here." Some days are easier than others, but the days that aren't so easy I just want to lock myself in my room and cry all day. I know every day that goes by is another day gone and another day closer to Jon coming home, but sometimes it just feels like he will never be home because he has so much longer to go. And yes, Eric, I do try and look at the bright side :o), but sometimes it is just too hard (and I know you understand that). Kelly is a big help with trying to keep me positive, but there are just times.
Well, I'm done now or I will never end up going to sleep tonight because I will be thinking too hard about things.