MONSTER MASSIVE.
first rave. and i must say, it was fuckin fun.
thank you ney and mel again for going. hope i didnt scare you guys or anything haha!
before i begin talking about my experience, know im not trying to convince anyone into doing drugs. however, i must say because of it, i realized A LOT. ive always been against those who abuse drugs/alcohol and depend on it for a good time. i guess thats why i try to be more on the sober side all the time. so, i feel pretty hypocritical when i do such things, which by the way is A RARE OCCASION, im the girl you usually see at a party (if im even there) not doing anything, holding the keys to the car. (that reminds me DD=designated driver. to renee DD=drunk driver! lol good times.) peer pressure is a huge influence on me. not gonna lie, but its also ultimately my decision. anyways, what im trying to say is after this weekend i really came together. just last week i was a mess, falling apart, depressed, the whole nine yards. at the rave, i didnt give a flying EFF about anything! i was having the time of my life... and i thought it was soooo sad that i had to be "on one" to have a good time. after my come down, i swear ive been on such a higher level than i was before. cuz honestly, i want to have a good time, ALL THE TIME and i dont want to be on anything to do so. i mean, ive always known i needed to "get up" for a while now and it was always easier said than done. but now, i can truly say im ready to. HERE'S TO BEING OKAY! and FINALLY, just letting go =)
before i looked like TRASH (lol i hella remember mel telling me she didnt wanna take pics of me cuz i look hella grimey!!! wow.. good lookin out ;P) nuns at a rave! i love louuuu!
monster massive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
next DAY, NO SLEEP!!!! took this at like 6pm the next day. not even a minute of sleep yet! were SO awake! lol this always cracks me up! i fuckin love walter. hes always taking care of me =)
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thank you ney and mel again for going. hope i didnt scare you guys or anything haha!
before i begin talking about my experience, know im not trying to convince anyone into doing drugs. however, i must say because of it, i realized A LOT. ive always been against those who abuse drugs/alcohol and depend on it for a good time. i guess thats why i try to be more on the sober side all the time. so, i feel pretty hypocritical when i do such things, which by the way is A RARE OCCASION, im the girl you usually see at a party (if im even there) not doing anything, holding the keys to the car. (that reminds me DD=designated driver. to renee DD=drunk driver! lol good times.) peer pressure is a huge influence on me. not gonna lie, but its also ultimately my decision. anyways, what im trying to say is after this weekend i really came together. just last week i was a mess, falling apart, depressed, the whole nine yards. at the rave, i didnt give a flying EFF about anything! i was having the time of my life... and i thought it was soooo sad that i had to be "on one" to have a good time. after my come down, i swear ive been on such a higher level than i was before. cuz honestly, i want to have a good time, ALL THE TIME and i dont want to be on anything to do so. i mean, ive always known i needed to "get up" for a while now and it was always easier said than done. but now, i can truly say im ready to. HERE'S TO BEING OKAY! and FINALLY, just letting go =)
before i looked like TRASH (lol i hella remember mel telling me she didnt wanna take pics of me cuz i look hella grimey!!! wow.. good lookin out ;P) nuns at a rave! i love louuuu!
monster massive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
next DAY, NO SLEEP!!!! took this at like 6pm the next day. not even a minute of sleep yet! were SO awake! lol this always cracks me up! i fuckin love walter. hes always taking care of me =)
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!