seriously.
today i woke up with a sore throat and im getting sicker as i type.
today i found out one of the people i care about most might leave.
today i argued with my cousins over stupid shit.
today my friend really pulled some shady shit on me.
what have i done to deserve such disrespect and inconsideration for my feelings?
do my feelings really not matter anymore?
or do you just secretly hate me?
can someone in this world tell me who the fuck has the balls to purposely fuck with someones mind continuously and then hurt them emotionally even after?
ok, its not hard to put shit in the past. its easy!
i thought that maybe, just maybe its possible for people to take a step backward and be friends.
i was down for that. i am down for that.
before i used to question, how someone could lie to my face OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
and how can someone deny half of it?
now, i wonder how someone i respect and care about so much could never return the same respect and care.
could someone really lack that much common sense.
im pretty sure how clear i am about how i feel about certain people. you know that.
ive repeated how i dont like being around certain people. i avoid it. you know that.
i also showed my raging emotion and anger whenever you talk in front of my face. you know that, too.
so seriously, whats your goal?
if you know someone is hurt by your actions and most of all, is TRYING SO HARD TO GET OVER YOU, would you parade your new relationship in front of their face?
we could be cool.
is it really too much to ask that you keep your relationship life away from me?
do i really even have to ask that of you?
ive already given up on understanding what the hell went on these past months.
but now, i cant get over how you're still trying to sabatoge my mental health even after everything between us is over.
all this time i thought i was going psycho. but maybe, you're the psycho one.
no seriously, if anyone out there thinks I AM the one being selfish and inconsiderate, tell me. i wanna know.