mehhh
Mom basically just gave me a "you're a loser with no friends" talk.
She pretty much said how I'm a college student, 18 years old without a drivers license, a job and a social life. Told me how I've woken up past 1PM for the past week, have only gotten out a few times and how I only talk to people on the internet. As if I didn't know any of that already.
Then she starts comparing me to my cousin whom I've sort of grew up with, saying that he has apparently been more confident in the way he speaks in comparison to how he was three years ago. As if people don't obviously change in three years? Especially high school? It's called growing up??? I did it too????? (At least a bit.)
She said that because he has a job and whatever, he's that way. I partly agree, but we grew up in totally different lifestyles? I've always seen him as someone confident. He's always talked about his friends and whatnot. My auntie and uncle were super confident and open people, so they obviously had an impact on how he "turned out". His older twin sisters were social and outgoing as well.
Comparing that with how I grew up... I can't remember how elementary or middle school went. I can't remember from second grade to fifth if I even talked to anyone. I had one good friend from sixth to the middle of eighth... But I was pretty much the outcast in my class. I went to a catholic school that had grades kindergarten to eighth grade, and in each grade there's about fifty people, so you pretty much grow up with your classmates, with a few here and there moving and coming in. No one really got to know me, though. I vaguely remember being bullied. Even when I look back to the few moments I can recall, I feel like the people who I thought were friends just took advantage of my naivety and really laughed at me when I thought otherwise.
I definitely changed from eighth grade to high school. I transferred to a "ghetto" high school, the biggest reason being that my parents still had to pay for my siblings' tuition as well. I only knew three other kids who transferred from my old school, one being my (used-to-be best) guy friend/neighbor and another being a girl who was a (sort of) friend. I only gained one new friend that year and a few acquaintances. I felt like a loser, but I didn't complain because I knew that all of the other freshman came from the same two other schools, so it was bound to happen that way? But I changed in that I became more wary of how people talked to me or treated me...
Sophomore and junior year were definitely good years for me. I got pretty much all the friends I had up to senior year, was actually invited to parties (there was two, should not even be a big deal but still), and had a bit of what I suppose is a social life? Senior year I stopped hanging out with a lot of people, started hanging out with only a few, and those who had become my friends became more like acquaintances. That's normal though, I'd think. Natural to find your true friends at the end of high school?
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She pretty much said how I'm a college student, 18 years old without a drivers license, a job and a social life. Told me how I've woken up past 1PM for the past week, have only gotten out a few times and how I only talk to people on the internet. As if I didn't know any of that already.
Then she starts comparing me to my cousin whom I've sort of grew up with, saying that he has apparently been more confident in the way he speaks in comparison to how he was three years ago. As if people don't obviously change in three years? Especially high school? It's called growing up??? I did it too????? (At least a bit.)
She said that because he has a job and whatever, he's that way. I partly agree, but we grew up in totally different lifestyles? I've always seen him as someone confident. He's always talked about his friends and whatnot. My auntie and uncle were super confident and open people, so they obviously had an impact on how he "turned out". His older twin sisters were social and outgoing as well.
Comparing that with how I grew up... I can't remember how elementary or middle school went. I can't remember from second grade to fifth if I even talked to anyone. I had one good friend from sixth to the middle of eighth... But I was pretty much the outcast in my class. I went to a catholic school that had grades kindergarten to eighth grade, and in each grade there's about fifty people, so you pretty much grow up with your classmates, with a few here and there moving and coming in. No one really got to know me, though. I vaguely remember being bullied. Even when I look back to the few moments I can recall, I feel like the people who I thought were friends just took advantage of my naivety and really laughed at me when I thought otherwise.
I definitely changed from eighth grade to high school. I transferred to a "ghetto" high school, the biggest reason being that my parents still had to pay for my siblings' tuition as well. I only knew three other kids who transferred from my old school, one being my (used-to-be best) guy friend/neighbor and another being a girl who was a (sort of) friend. I only gained one new friend that year and a few acquaintances. I felt like a loser, but I didn't complain because I knew that all of the other freshman came from the same two other schools, so it was bound to happen that way? But I changed in that I became more wary of how people talked to me or treated me...
Sophomore and junior year were definitely good years for me. I got pretty much all the friends I had up to senior year, was actually invited to parties (there was two, should not even be a big deal but still), and had a bit of what I suppose is a social life? Senior year I stopped hanging out with a lot of people, started hanging out with only a few, and those who had become my friends became more like acquaintances. That's normal though, I'd think. Natural to find your true friends at the end of high school?
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