happy eighteenth...
It was my birthday a couple days ago... I'm now eighteen. I feel old and like I should be acting differently, although to be honest I don't think I will be, haha.
My mom asked me the day before if I was excited to be eighteen, and I said no. She told me that when she turned eighteen, she looked forward to being independant and trusted to take care of herself because my grandma was constantly on her case (like she is to me now). But... I'm a really dependant person. My parents raised me up pretty sheltered and rarely gave me responsibilities that most kids my age took up. I don't want to blame them for the way I am now, but no one could say that they weren't at least part of it.
Aaaanyway, I'm not looking forward to the responsibilities of being an adult. That's it.
I am looking forward to living in my own place, getting things done, getting a job, those kinds of things... but I think that the real part that I don't want to deal with is getting those things done when I don't want to do them. I've had important deadlines before now, but the consequences of not following through with them were not as bad as the ones that I'm going to have to beat from now on.
...I don't even know what I'm saying right now to be honest. My mom's singing karaoke in the same room and my head is half stressed about college and half singing 'baby how am I supposed to live without you~~~?' Maybe I'll be better organized tomorrow...= =
My mom asked me the day before if I was excited to be eighteen, and I said no. She told me that when she turned eighteen, she looked forward to being independant and trusted to take care of herself because my grandma was constantly on her case (like she is to me now). But... I'm a really dependant person. My parents raised me up pretty sheltered and rarely gave me responsibilities that most kids my age took up. I don't want to blame them for the way I am now, but no one could say that they weren't at least part of it.
Aaaanyway, I'm not looking forward to the responsibilities of being an adult. That's it.
I am looking forward to living in my own place, getting things done, getting a job, those kinds of things... but I think that the real part that I don't want to deal with is getting those things done when I don't want to do them. I've had important deadlines before now, but the consequences of not following through with them were not as bad as the ones that I'm going to have to beat from now on.
...I don't even know what I'm saying right now to be honest. My mom's singing karaoke in the same room and my head is half stressed about college and half singing 'baby how am I supposed to live without you~~~?' Maybe I'll be better organized tomorrow...= =