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Mood has been kinda bad today. I feel like I'm going stir-crazy. I feel like I'm being ignored. People who I've sent messages to have ignored them. I don't understand what it is. I need to spend time with people, and interact with them. I feel like my faculties aren't as sharp because I don't interact with people. When I do, I feel like I'm out of step and off kilter. I can tell it contributes to my making a bad first impression on people I'm just meeting. It's not good. Just being around people isn't good enough, either. I need to bring myself, to be present, to be engaged, to communicate. Much of the time when I'm around people I feel withdrawn and self absorbed and disengaged and distant. I don't know what to do about it. It feels like I can't help it, my attempts to control it only back fire and make it worse.