Secrets...
Everyone's got secrets. I've got many. There's one that really hurts me when I talk about it. It's time to get it off my chest...
About 4 years ago, there was this girl. I met her my freshman year of high school. When I first laid my eyes on her, I thought she was the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. And she was SO nice to me, like I had been her friend for years. To me, she was the perfect girl. Well, throughout the year, she and I got to know each other very well. As the year went on, I wasn't aware of this then, but I was falling in love with her. Now, I've said I loved girls many times over the years, but that was just because I had a crush on them. I was young, I didn't know what true love was. But, I really fell in love with this girl. I wish I had know it then. Anyway, the school year ended, and we went our separate ways. My sophomore year began, but I didn't see her as often as the year before. I'd see her in the halls, but I wouldn't say anything to her. I'd just pass her up like she was just another person, all the while knowing that I had feelings for her. She was graduating that year, so I knew I had to tell her how I felt before that happened. The year went on, and still, I did nothing. On the seniors' last day, I knew I had to tell her, or let her walk out of my life forever. Still, I did nothing. I then realized that I had made the biggest mistake of my life. I let my first true love walk out of my life without her even realizing all the feelings that I had. I destroyed part of my soul, and I did nothing to try to fix it. I went to her graduation, hoping to tell her about my feelings. I went up to her after the ceremony, and said "Goodbye." I didn't tell her. That was my last chance. I blew it. Now, it feels like a large part of my heart is missing, and it really hurts to look back on this. I could cry right now, just talking about it. I've never told anyone about her, and it hurts to keep it a secret. I just wish God would give me another chance. Just to see her face one more time, and I would tell her. Those feelings are still there, buried deep. And I will dig them up next time I see her. If I ever see her again...
See ya,
John Williams
About 4 years ago, there was this girl. I met her my freshman year of high school. When I first laid my eyes on her, I thought she was the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. And she was SO nice to me, like I had been her friend for years. To me, she was the perfect girl. Well, throughout the year, she and I got to know each other very well. As the year went on, I wasn't aware of this then, but I was falling in love with her. Now, I've said I loved girls many times over the years, but that was just because I had a crush on them. I was young, I didn't know what true love was. But, I really fell in love with this girl. I wish I had know it then. Anyway, the school year ended, and we went our separate ways. My sophomore year began, but I didn't see her as often as the year before. I'd see her in the halls, but I wouldn't say anything to her. I'd just pass her up like she was just another person, all the while knowing that I had feelings for her. She was graduating that year, so I knew I had to tell her how I felt before that happened. The year went on, and still, I did nothing. On the seniors' last day, I knew I had to tell her, or let her walk out of my life forever. Still, I did nothing. I then realized that I had made the biggest mistake of my life. I let my first true love walk out of my life without her even realizing all the feelings that I had. I destroyed part of my soul, and I did nothing to try to fix it. I went to her graduation, hoping to tell her about my feelings. I went up to her after the ceremony, and said "Goodbye." I didn't tell her. That was my last chance. I blew it. Now, it feels like a large part of my heart is missing, and it really hurts to look back on this. I could cry right now, just talking about it. I've never told anyone about her, and it hurts to keep it a secret. I just wish God would give me another chance. Just to see her face one more time, and I would tell her. Those feelings are still there, buried deep. And I will dig them up next time I see her. If I ever see her again...
See ya,
John Williams