Fanfic: Careful With What You Wish - Chap 30
Title: "Careful With What You Wish - Chap 30: Broken Road"
Author: J.J.
Warning: It's an AU BASED ON THE MANGA. It requires knowledge of the 'X' manga. It contains some Japanese words (the Dictionary is at the bottom), some OOC, a bit of sappiness, twisted relationships, suicide attempts, mentions of abuse, violence, general insanity and other stuffs I might have forgot... Deal with this fic with caution...
Notes: This is dark and twisted, dark and twisted, dark and twisted... have I mentioned it's dark and twisted? It's born to show a less nice Seishiro, how bad is Fuma's idea that Wishes must be fulfilled and how stubborn can be Subaru no matter what happened to him.
Disclaimer:
"Tokyo Babylon" & "X" belong to Clamp. I'm merely using their characters because I love them... especially Seishiro and Subaru...
Do I own something here? Oh yes, I own the plot and a sensible heart which would surely break if you give me harsh reviews... so please be honest but nice ok?
Thanks:
To Ruth for betaing this! Thank you a lot!
To Moko, Tanuki-dono, Meffie, Sakanagi and Yupita for supporting me while writing this fic! Thank you a lot!
Summary: After meeting Subaru in his Maboroshi 16 years ago Seishiro chose to keep him and placed him under a spell so that he would obey to him. Now, in the year of the destiny he has to face Sumeragi Hokuto who wants her brother back and Monou Fuma's obsession for fulfilling wishes...
'We should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.' Andy Rooney
“I think about the years I spent
Just passing through
I'd like to take the time I lost
And give it back to you.
But you just smile and take my hand.
You've been there, you understand,
It's all part of a grander plan
That is coming true.
Every long lost dream
Led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart
They were just northern stars
Pointing me on my way
Into your loving arms.
This much I know is true
(That) God blessed the broken road,
That lead me straight to you.
Straight to you.”
(Melodie Crittenden - “Broken Road”)
Kakyou sighed as he watched Hinoto fighting her dark self. She had managed to hold onto herself but… how much longer would she be able to resist? He sighed again.(1)
“The future… cannot be changed. All the dreams I've seen have all become reality. A YumeMi's dream is never wrong and yet…” he whispered slowly to himself in his dark reality. He raised his palm and a tiny ball of light took shape. The ball shifted and morphed into the figure of a white-winged Kotori.
‘… Tell… Oniichan… and Kamui-chan that… I love them and the future has not been decided yet…’
Kakyou sighed again, lowering his gaze. Kotori had told him there was another future.
One that might not end in tragedy.
Kakyou couldn’t see it but he feared it. He wanted to die. He couldn’t see any other future for himself that he might wish for and yet… he remembered Sumeragi Subaru-san standing in front of him as he used to when he had visited his dreams before the spell that had trapped him was broken.
‘I'm sure, if you would give the world a chance, you would meet more. You could even meet someone for whom you would think it would be worth it to die for, and she would think the same about you.’
The young man now was back with the Sakurazukamori. Kakyou didn’t like the Sakurazukamori and didn’t want Subaru-san to be with him but… but Subaru-san was definitely happier now that he was back with the person with whom he wished so desperately to stay and his happiness somehow made Kakyou feel better.
It was an odd feeling. Before he had never been able to understand how, being with a person with whom you wanted to be, could make you happy. It was a feeling he had never experienced and that, to him, looked very unfamiliar. Now… now however…
‘Huh? Who are you? Why is it that you can enter my dream?’
He lowered his gaze in embarrassment as his dream showed him a memory of his previous meeting with Sumeragi Hokuto. He hadn’t meant to think of her and yet…
‘Oh, calling you Kuzuki-san is so formal! Do you mind if I call you simply Kakyou? You can call me Hokuto like everyone else!’
He sighed as he stared at her cheerful and energetic personality. Sumeragi Hokuto was simply someone hard to forget, someone that could get under his skin as easily as she breathed. She was so different from her brother, she was so… so sunny, so optimistic, so full of warmth that she gave freely to everyone.
Subaru-san was a caring person, very attentive to the feelings of others but he was shy, quiet and reserved. He didn’t express his feelings much and was fast to put aside his wishes should they bother someone else. Yet there was something in the way he behaved when the Sakurazukamori was in the room, in the way he looked at the man, in the way he leaned into his touch…
When Subaru-san had said that the Sakurazukamori was everything to him he had meant it. He loved the man, he loved the man who constantly demanded things from him, demanded things like a little, spoiled kid, even demanded things that Subaru-san couldn’t, wouldn’t approve of or that hurt him, while he in turn asked little or nothing at all from the Sakurazukamori and Kakyou hadn’t understood.
Kakyou couldn’t grasp how someone would be willing to love someone else like that, how someone would be willing to allow another to trap him, to treat him like that just… to stay close to him. No company was worth that much to Kakyou. However… Sumeragi Hokuto… He… He wanted to see her again… He… Just for a moment he… Would it bother her?
‘Maybe you can visit me again? And Subaru of course. I'm sure he would be happy to talk with a friend!’
Kakyou didn’t feel like visiting Subaru-san right then. He liked Subaru-san, Subaru-san had been kind to him, the closest thing he had to a friend but… he didn’t feel like seeing him right then. But… but he would like to see Hokuto, even if just for a moment.
He hoped she wouldn’t mind. He hoped she would be happy to see him. He hoped she would be asleep and dreaming. He hoped the Chi no Ryu’s Kamui wouldn’t bother them. He hoped they… she…
He shook his head. It was time to stop hoping and try entering her dream. Kakyou forced himself to straighten his back and face the risk of being rejected. He had suffered worse things in the past and… catching even only a single glimpse of Hokuto would be worth it anyway.
Kakyou wasn’t rejected. On the contrary, as soon as the girl saw him in her dream she ran to hug him quite tightly and enthusiastically. Kakyou couldn’t remember being hugged in his whole life so it was quite an overwhelming experience that left him completely without words and totally and utterly confused. It was good Hokuto didn’t seem to expect him to keep up the conversation. Instead she immediately began to inform him in a delighted tone about her brother’s status. Apparently Subaru-san was a lot better and that was a big relief for Hokuto, only, the girl complained, he was spending way too much time with the Sakurazukamori, and if that jerk was doing something to her baby brother… She trailed off but her gaze spoke volumes.
“He’s sleeping now,” Kakyou hurried to say as she paused for the first time to think of what she would do to the Sakurazukamori should he touch her brother.
“Uh? Who’s sleeping?” she asked looking confused.
“The Sakurazukamori. He is sleeping. So is your brother. I can sense them,” he clarified. She gave him an intrigued look.
“Can you see what are they dreaming of?” she asked him.
“I try to not look at the Sakurazukamori’s dreams when I can avoid it,” Kakyou admitted, blushing slightly.
“Are Sei-chan’s dreams that perverted ?” she wondered, tilting her head.
“Sei…-chan?” he repeated, feeling strangely hurt by the familiarity she used to refer to the Sakurazukamori. Hokuto sighed.
“I’m trying to call him that. Since he’s kind of my brother-in-law we should have a good relationship, at least in front of Subaru. It seems he can’t stand us arguing. It’s just… not very easy. I still… can’t forgive him,” she admitted. “And seeing Subaru loving him so much kind of hurts. He… he doesn’t remember me yet,” she confessed.
“He’s scared,” Kakyou said quietly.
“Scared? Of his only sister? I would never hurt him!” she exclaimed. The she froze on the spot, remembering what Fuma-kun had said.
‘You three were the ones behind this, I merely fulfilled your Wishes. You Wished that stupid spell of yours removed and so did your precious Ten no Ryu and his sister. I merely fulfilled your Wishes, even if I admit that the girl was the one responsible for the way I used. She Wished the Ten no Ryu away from you _no matter what_, and so I gave your precious Subaru-kun a reason to Wish to stay away from you and you a reason to Wish to stay away from him.’
She wanted to place the blame of what had happened to Subaru entirely on Sei-chan but Fuma-kun had said… he had said… Unconsciously she began trembling and let herself slide down to sit on the floor. Did Subaru blame her for what had happened to him? Did he hate her for what had happened to him? Did he…
She realized she had wrapped her arms around herself and had started rocking to and fro like a child. Only when Kakyou gently rested his hands on her shoulders, she stopped her motion.
“Hokuto, please calm down,” he told her softly, his eyes filled with concern. “Subaru-san doesn’t hold you responsible for what Kamui did, I’m sure of this.”
“So why…” she whimpered, sounding like a scared child. All her life she had tried to be strong and brave. Strong and brave in order to save Subaru. And now she had caused Subaru to…
“Hokuto, Subaru-san is a shy person who always tries to fulfil other people’s expectations. You remember a child you loved. He’s now a young man with little or no memory of that child and so different from what he once was,” Kakyou continued gently. “You loved the child he was but… are you capable of loving the man he is? He doesn’t know how to return to the person he was, a side of him doesn’t want to and the other is scared to learn what he has lost. Among all this he has to deal with all that has happened to him, which hasn’t been pleasurable to say the least.” He smiled gently. “Don’t you think it’s comprehensible if he’s scared?”
“I love him, I would love him no matter what, he’s always my brother my sweet Subaru, I know he is, I can always see it. And he can’t even call me by my name…” she said softly.
“Give him time. From what I can see the Sakurazukamori isn’t doing much better than you. If Subaru-san were okay, if things were as they had been before, they wouldn’t be sleeping at this hour…” Kakyou lowered his head embarrassed as he realized what he had said.
“This means he and Subaru have…” Hokuto exclaimed, her eyes growing wide. Kakyou nodded. “He told me he had never hurt him or forced him to have sex with him! That liar! I… I…”
“Hokuto… I think he meant he had never… hum… forced Subaru-san when he was unwilling…” Kakyou stammered nervously. “But they definitely…”
“But… but… I admit Sei-chan’s not bad-looking but he’s older! And Subaru is so young! And he does horrible things! Why should Subaru …” But the answer was obvious for her too. Her shy, sensitive brother loved that guy. She would have liked to say it was all the spell’s fault but she had seen the way they looked at each other and… “He’s so young…” she whispered to herself, then shook her head. No, he wasn’t, not anymore. He wasn’t a child anymore. Maybe Subaru was right. Maybe she wasn’t seeing him for who he was now, merely for the memory of who he had been. She remembered many little facts, many little things she said that could have made him think she still considered him to be the old Subaru, many moments in which he must have felt uncomfortable, even on that same day, and yet he had never complained, just accepted that she wanted someone he wasn’t anymore.
Maybe that was also one of the reasons why Subaru preferred Sei-chan’s company. At least the man knew him for who he was now… Well… even Sei-chan seemed to have his own problems. What had happened had upset Subaru quite a bit. Changed him. Maybe it wasn’t easy for the man either.
“Kakyou… I think I’ll learn to know this new Subaru. I know I’ll love him just the same anyway. And I think I’ll let him know me again. I’m changed too. It’ll be fun, like rediscovering each other,” she added with a nice smile. Kakyou smiled back. He couldn’t remember smiling that much before.
“I’m sure he’ll love you too…” he said softly, then lowered his head again as he blushed and decided he would do better to leave before he embarrassed himself further. Hokuto smiled at him.
“Kakyou… thank you. You always help me,” she said softly. “I can’t understand how a person as gentle as you can wish for the end of the world.”
“I…” ‘I just want to die’ he thought but that wasn’t something he could say to Hokuto. Especially because he completely forgot his wish while he was with her. “It’s… complicated…”
“Will you tell me one day?” she asked gently.
“Maybe. One day,” he replied. He didn’t want to. He feared she would be disappointed in him but…
“Promise!” she exclaimed, offering him her pinkie. He blinked, then hooked his with hers unable to say ‘no’ to her.(2)
“I promise,” he agreed seriously.
“Then I’ll be waiting to meet you again here in my dreams to fulfil your promise! Or maybe even outside them!” she exclaimed cheerfully and he realized he’d been just invited to visit her again. And he had no idea why but the mere knowledge made him happier than he believed a man could be.
‘I'm sure, if you gave the world a chance, you would meet more. You could even meet someone for whom you would think it would be worth it to die for, and she would think the same about you.’
He had no idea if Sumeragi Hokuto was the one about whom Subaru-san had been talking but he was sure about one thing. She was special.
To be continued...
JJ's Notes:
1. After Saiki’s death Hinoto started to be tormented by her alter-ego which Wishes for the Ten no Ryus’ death, slowly taking control of Hinoto’s actions.
2. Twining pinkies together is a children’s way to make promises in Japan.
JJ's Extra Notes:
I know, I know, very few people care about Hokuto and Kakyou but… but all the ‘X’ characters have a role in this story so this piece was necessary. Focus will return on Seishiro and Subaru soon.
Dictionary:
-chan: Name ending used to express affection and familiarity or to talk with a child
-kun: Young
-san: "Mr." or "Mrs."
Chi no Ryu: Dragon of Earth
Maboroshi: Illusion
Onmyoudo: "Way of Yin and Yang". Yin and Yang are the male and female forces underlying the movement and changes of nature. Onmyoudo is based on the Chinese arts of astrology, divination and Taoist magic and also represents a mystical way of living in harmony with the forces of nature
Onmyoujutsu: "Art of Yin and Yang". The ability to use Onmyoudo spells
Sakanagi: "Reverse effect". Backlash of a spell
Sakurazukamori: "Guardian of the Cherry Blossom Burial Mound". The assassin who uses Onmyoujutsu to kill whomever threatens Japan
Ten no Ryu: Dragon of Heaven
YumeMi: "Dreamgazer". One that can see the future in dreams
Don't grumble silently, please let me know what you're thinking of this!
Send me your comments!
This is also available at Fanfiction.net
You can also read the demo version of this fic here.
Author: J.J.
Warning: It's an AU BASED ON THE MANGA. It requires knowledge of the 'X' manga. It contains some Japanese words (the Dictionary is at the bottom), some OOC, a bit of sappiness, twisted relationships, suicide attempts, mentions of abuse, violence, general insanity and other stuffs I might have forgot... Deal with this fic with caution...
Notes: This is dark and twisted, dark and twisted, dark and twisted... have I mentioned it's dark and twisted? It's born to show a less nice Seishiro, how bad is Fuma's idea that Wishes must be fulfilled and how stubborn can be Subaru no matter what happened to him.
Disclaimer:
"Tokyo Babylon" & "X" belong to Clamp. I'm merely using their characters because I love them... especially Seishiro and Subaru...
Do I own something here? Oh yes, I own the plot and a sensible heart which would surely break if you give me harsh reviews... so please be honest but nice ok?
Thanks:
To Ruth for betaing this! Thank you a lot!
To Moko, Tanuki-dono, Meffie, Sakanagi and Yupita for supporting me while writing this fic! Thank you a lot!
Summary: After meeting Subaru in his Maboroshi 16 years ago Seishiro chose to keep him and placed him under a spell so that he would obey to him. Now, in the year of the destiny he has to face Sumeragi Hokuto who wants her brother back and Monou Fuma's obsession for fulfilling wishes...
'We should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.' Andy Rooney
“I think about the years I spent
Just passing through
I'd like to take the time I lost
And give it back to you.
But you just smile and take my hand.
You've been there, you understand,
It's all part of a grander plan
That is coming true.
Every long lost dream
Led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart
They were just northern stars
Pointing me on my way
Into your loving arms.
This much I know is true
(That) God blessed the broken road,
That lead me straight to you.
Straight to you.”
(Melodie Crittenden - “Broken Road”)
Kakyou sighed as he watched Hinoto fighting her dark self. She had managed to hold onto herself but… how much longer would she be able to resist? He sighed again.(1)
“The future… cannot be changed. All the dreams I've seen have all become reality. A YumeMi's dream is never wrong and yet…” he whispered slowly to himself in his dark reality. He raised his palm and a tiny ball of light took shape. The ball shifted and morphed into the figure of a white-winged Kotori.
‘… Tell… Oniichan… and Kamui-chan that… I love them and the future has not been decided yet…’
Kakyou sighed again, lowering his gaze. Kotori had told him there was another future.
One that might not end in tragedy.
Kakyou couldn’t see it but he feared it. He wanted to die. He couldn’t see any other future for himself that he might wish for and yet… he remembered Sumeragi Subaru-san standing in front of him as he used to when he had visited his dreams before the spell that had trapped him was broken.
‘I'm sure, if you would give the world a chance, you would meet more. You could even meet someone for whom you would think it would be worth it to die for, and she would think the same about you.’
The young man now was back with the Sakurazukamori. Kakyou didn’t like the Sakurazukamori and didn’t want Subaru-san to be with him but… but Subaru-san was definitely happier now that he was back with the person with whom he wished so desperately to stay and his happiness somehow made Kakyou feel better.
It was an odd feeling. Before he had never been able to understand how, being with a person with whom you wanted to be, could make you happy. It was a feeling he had never experienced and that, to him, looked very unfamiliar. Now… now however…
‘Huh? Who are you? Why is it that you can enter my dream?’
He lowered his gaze in embarrassment as his dream showed him a memory of his previous meeting with Sumeragi Hokuto. He hadn’t meant to think of her and yet…
‘Oh, calling you Kuzuki-san is so formal! Do you mind if I call you simply Kakyou? You can call me Hokuto like everyone else!’
He sighed as he stared at her cheerful and energetic personality. Sumeragi Hokuto was simply someone hard to forget, someone that could get under his skin as easily as she breathed. She was so different from her brother, she was so… so sunny, so optimistic, so full of warmth that she gave freely to everyone.
Subaru-san was a caring person, very attentive to the feelings of others but he was shy, quiet and reserved. He didn’t express his feelings much and was fast to put aside his wishes should they bother someone else. Yet there was something in the way he behaved when the Sakurazukamori was in the room, in the way he looked at the man, in the way he leaned into his touch…
When Subaru-san had said that the Sakurazukamori was everything to him he had meant it. He loved the man, he loved the man who constantly demanded things from him, demanded things like a little, spoiled kid, even demanded things that Subaru-san couldn’t, wouldn’t approve of or that hurt him, while he in turn asked little or nothing at all from the Sakurazukamori and Kakyou hadn’t understood.
Kakyou couldn’t grasp how someone would be willing to love someone else like that, how someone would be willing to allow another to trap him, to treat him like that just… to stay close to him. No company was worth that much to Kakyou. However… Sumeragi Hokuto… He… He wanted to see her again… He… Just for a moment he… Would it bother her?
‘Maybe you can visit me again? And Subaru of course. I'm sure he would be happy to talk with a friend!’
Kakyou didn’t feel like visiting Subaru-san right then. He liked Subaru-san, Subaru-san had been kind to him, the closest thing he had to a friend but… he didn’t feel like seeing him right then. But… but he would like to see Hokuto, even if just for a moment.
He hoped she wouldn’t mind. He hoped she would be happy to see him. He hoped she would be asleep and dreaming. He hoped the Chi no Ryu’s Kamui wouldn’t bother them. He hoped they… she…
He shook his head. It was time to stop hoping and try entering her dream. Kakyou forced himself to straighten his back and face the risk of being rejected. He had suffered worse things in the past and… catching even only a single glimpse of Hokuto would be worth it anyway.
Kakyou wasn’t rejected. On the contrary, as soon as the girl saw him in her dream she ran to hug him quite tightly and enthusiastically. Kakyou couldn’t remember being hugged in his whole life so it was quite an overwhelming experience that left him completely without words and totally and utterly confused. It was good Hokuto didn’t seem to expect him to keep up the conversation. Instead she immediately began to inform him in a delighted tone about her brother’s status. Apparently Subaru-san was a lot better and that was a big relief for Hokuto, only, the girl complained, he was spending way too much time with the Sakurazukamori, and if that jerk was doing something to her baby brother… She trailed off but her gaze spoke volumes.
“He’s sleeping now,” Kakyou hurried to say as she paused for the first time to think of what she would do to the Sakurazukamori should he touch her brother.
“Uh? Who’s sleeping?” she asked looking confused.
“The Sakurazukamori. He is sleeping. So is your brother. I can sense them,” he clarified. She gave him an intrigued look.
“Can you see what are they dreaming of?” she asked him.
“I try to not look at the Sakurazukamori’s dreams when I can avoid it,” Kakyou admitted, blushing slightly.
“Are Sei-chan’s dreams that perverted ?” she wondered, tilting her head.
“Sei…-chan?” he repeated, feeling strangely hurt by the familiarity she used to refer to the Sakurazukamori. Hokuto sighed.
“I’m trying to call him that. Since he’s kind of my brother-in-law we should have a good relationship, at least in front of Subaru. It seems he can’t stand us arguing. It’s just… not very easy. I still… can’t forgive him,” she admitted. “And seeing Subaru loving him so much kind of hurts. He… he doesn’t remember me yet,” she confessed.
“He’s scared,” Kakyou said quietly.
“Scared? Of his only sister? I would never hurt him!” she exclaimed. The she froze on the spot, remembering what Fuma-kun had said.
‘You three were the ones behind this, I merely fulfilled your Wishes. You Wished that stupid spell of yours removed and so did your precious Ten no Ryu and his sister. I merely fulfilled your Wishes, even if I admit that the girl was the one responsible for the way I used. She Wished the Ten no Ryu away from you _no matter what_, and so I gave your precious Subaru-kun a reason to Wish to stay away from you and you a reason to Wish to stay away from him.’
She wanted to place the blame of what had happened to Subaru entirely on Sei-chan but Fuma-kun had said… he had said… Unconsciously she began trembling and let herself slide down to sit on the floor. Did Subaru blame her for what had happened to him? Did he hate her for what had happened to him? Did he…
She realized she had wrapped her arms around herself and had started rocking to and fro like a child. Only when Kakyou gently rested his hands on her shoulders, she stopped her motion.
“Hokuto, please calm down,” he told her softly, his eyes filled with concern. “Subaru-san doesn’t hold you responsible for what Kamui did, I’m sure of this.”
“So why…” she whimpered, sounding like a scared child. All her life she had tried to be strong and brave. Strong and brave in order to save Subaru. And now she had caused Subaru to…
“Hokuto, Subaru-san is a shy person who always tries to fulfil other people’s expectations. You remember a child you loved. He’s now a young man with little or no memory of that child and so different from what he once was,” Kakyou continued gently. “You loved the child he was but… are you capable of loving the man he is? He doesn’t know how to return to the person he was, a side of him doesn’t want to and the other is scared to learn what he has lost. Among all this he has to deal with all that has happened to him, which hasn’t been pleasurable to say the least.” He smiled gently. “Don’t you think it’s comprehensible if he’s scared?”
“I love him, I would love him no matter what, he’s always my brother my sweet Subaru, I know he is, I can always see it. And he can’t even call me by my name…” she said softly.
“Give him time. From what I can see the Sakurazukamori isn’t doing much better than you. If Subaru-san were okay, if things were as they had been before, they wouldn’t be sleeping at this hour…” Kakyou lowered his head embarrassed as he realized what he had said.
“This means he and Subaru have…” Hokuto exclaimed, her eyes growing wide. Kakyou nodded. “He told me he had never hurt him or forced him to have sex with him! That liar! I… I…”
“Hokuto… I think he meant he had never… hum… forced Subaru-san when he was unwilling…” Kakyou stammered nervously. “But they definitely…”
“But… but… I admit Sei-chan’s not bad-looking but he’s older! And Subaru is so young! And he does horrible things! Why should Subaru …” But the answer was obvious for her too. Her shy, sensitive brother loved that guy. She would have liked to say it was all the spell’s fault but she had seen the way they looked at each other and… “He’s so young…” she whispered to herself, then shook her head. No, he wasn’t, not anymore. He wasn’t a child anymore. Maybe Subaru was right. Maybe she wasn’t seeing him for who he was now, merely for the memory of who he had been. She remembered many little facts, many little things she said that could have made him think she still considered him to be the old Subaru, many moments in which he must have felt uncomfortable, even on that same day, and yet he had never complained, just accepted that she wanted someone he wasn’t anymore.
Maybe that was also one of the reasons why Subaru preferred Sei-chan’s company. At least the man knew him for who he was now… Well… even Sei-chan seemed to have his own problems. What had happened had upset Subaru quite a bit. Changed him. Maybe it wasn’t easy for the man either.
“Kakyou… I think I’ll learn to know this new Subaru. I know I’ll love him just the same anyway. And I think I’ll let him know me again. I’m changed too. It’ll be fun, like rediscovering each other,” she added with a nice smile. Kakyou smiled back. He couldn’t remember smiling that much before.
“I’m sure he’ll love you too…” he said softly, then lowered his head again as he blushed and decided he would do better to leave before he embarrassed himself further. Hokuto smiled at him.
“Kakyou… thank you. You always help me,” she said softly. “I can’t understand how a person as gentle as you can wish for the end of the world.”
“I…” ‘I just want to die’ he thought but that wasn’t something he could say to Hokuto. Especially because he completely forgot his wish while he was with her. “It’s… complicated…”
“Will you tell me one day?” she asked gently.
“Maybe. One day,” he replied. He didn’t want to. He feared she would be disappointed in him but…
“Promise!” she exclaimed, offering him her pinkie. He blinked, then hooked his with hers unable to say ‘no’ to her.(2)
“I promise,” he agreed seriously.
“Then I’ll be waiting to meet you again here in my dreams to fulfil your promise! Or maybe even outside them!” she exclaimed cheerfully and he realized he’d been just invited to visit her again. And he had no idea why but the mere knowledge made him happier than he believed a man could be.
‘I'm sure, if you gave the world a chance, you would meet more. You could even meet someone for whom you would think it would be worth it to die for, and she would think the same about you.’
He had no idea if Sumeragi Hokuto was the one about whom Subaru-san had been talking but he was sure about one thing. She was special.
To be continued...
JJ's Notes:
1. After Saiki’s death Hinoto started to be tormented by her alter-ego which Wishes for the Ten no Ryus’ death, slowly taking control of Hinoto’s actions.
2. Twining pinkies together is a children’s way to make promises in Japan.
JJ's Extra Notes:
I know, I know, very few people care about Hokuto and Kakyou but… but all the ‘X’ characters have a role in this story so this piece was necessary. Focus will return on Seishiro and Subaru soon.
Dictionary:
-chan: Name ending used to express affection and familiarity or to talk with a child
-kun: Young
-san: "Mr." or "Mrs."
Chi no Ryu: Dragon of Earth
Maboroshi: Illusion
Onmyoudo: "Way of Yin and Yang". Yin and Yang are the male and female forces underlying the movement and changes of nature. Onmyoudo is based on the Chinese arts of astrology, divination and Taoist magic and also represents a mystical way of living in harmony with the forces of nature
Onmyoujutsu: "Art of Yin and Yang". The ability to use Onmyoudo spells
Sakanagi: "Reverse effect". Backlash of a spell
Sakurazukamori: "Guardian of the Cherry Blossom Burial Mound". The assassin who uses Onmyoujutsu to kill whomever threatens Japan
Ten no Ryu: Dragon of Heaven
YumeMi: "Dreamgazer". One that can see the future in dreams
Don't grumble silently, please let me know what you're thinking of this!
Send me your comments!
This is also available at Fanfiction.net
You can also read the demo version of this fic here.