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[jjalan]

i'm trying a really am
i though i was, but i'm not
i can't tell if i'm holding it in or if i've let it all out
i think it seams to be hiding
waiting to show its ugly face and ruin my days
it has already ruined me enough why can't it just leave me alone?
leave me be?
let me go on living?

i've taken another step toward recovery
i hate to call it that
but i guess that is what it has boiled down to....
i'll get better
i'm doing so as i type this

thanks for listening
no i get to go cry
again
i hate it