turkey day... thankful for all this?
so the big thinggoing around today, people ask me what i am thankful for. So i look back over the past year, and try and pick exactly what in my life has gone right. Well, let's see, last thankgiving was the last time i had a home. Then my parets moved to florida. that was great, i finished up the semester and ended up failing the one class i was sure i passed. fuck wentworth. over chritmass break, i did so many drugs and drank so much, i ended up waking up in some strange girls room. there's a post about how it freeded me from the clutchs of kp. then i went back to school in january, ended up with a gay roomate, but it turns out not all homos are...well homos. me and him ended becoming really good friends. I also met my NY home girl. She became another solid friend. so there's 2 people i met that i could trust. I also started talking to number one alot. a whole lot. well i smked weed everyday, and failed out...well technically i didn't fail i withdrew(dropped out). moved to florida, a 22 hour drive with my pops, was really cool, cept i was high for the first 5 hours of it. so i get here and veg out gettin high for the first 2 weeks, and i get a job at leading edge landservices(inc). it's a cool job, indoors etc. made a few friends from work, which was esp. cool. we hung out smoked lots of weed, and partied. this whole time i continue talking to number one, and i start to realise i have feelings for her, and she's a mad cool girl i really want to get to know. my grand am basically stops working at 90 mph on I4, so i bought a 1999 firebird. well it's great, casue boom august comes around and i have the best weekend. The last dispatch concert, hanging with my two best freinds in the whole world, ldog and vanski. and number one says she's falling for me. So i start to think, hey things are finally turning around and i am happy again. so then i get back and my office job, turn into field work, for the entire month of august and most of september. it was cool, then in october i decided fuck it i am going to see number one no matter what. well it didn't happen, so i went back to florida. then i went again to see her. but her brother died. so that weekend was busted. then she disapeared. she's gone, no goodbyes, no nothing, just disapeared. so i did some checking. found out a ton of shit i didn't need to know. about her. it's crazy. i don't know what the hell is going on. it drives me crazy. and yada yada yada, here it is thanksgiving weekend, once again wondering what's really going on, and what i need to do to understand it all.