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[jizznizzle]

Okay so today didn't start off so good: A friend ( im not sure i should call her that seeing as we don't really hang out anymore) got mad at me for a post i made in livejournal and she knows who she is.  The first thing is when people are mad they need to vent and i used this to vent, it wasn't meant to be taken to extremes, second it was awhile ago and bringing up the past only brings bad things.  She was upset at me for "bashing" her on this, but i never once said " fuck ____" or "she's a bitch", i didn't say anything derogitory about her, just that i don't agree with how she treats me and i will continue to say that.  I guess i thought there was a little spark or something that i could try and rekindle the friendship, but i've realized it's gone. I've really realized it now.  She doesn't talk to me anymore and never calls so i should've seen it coming.  It's just that i'm not one to throw things away easily.  I don't regret saying the things i said, because it's true; i am mad that my friends make me feel like shit for hanging out with my boyfriend, and they make him feel that he's the reason for my loss of friends.  Now i know i had a big part in that, i didn't come around as often and such, but by the way I SUCK AT TIME MANAGEMENT incase no one noticed. So anyways i've decided that if you want to be mad and hold me against something that is NOT entirely my fault, then go for it.  Please realize that this is your fault as well.
Also for future refrence to anyone who wants to hang out with me: If you tell me you want to hang out, then i expect when i call you, that you STILL want to hang out and if you don't give me a legitimate reason.