Update of my life...
So after a whole year....well, about, my work on a manga adaptation of Macbeth will be coming to a close on October 15th...so I'm really hoping that I get everything done when deadline rolls around...
On a more personal note...my life has changed...a lot.
I'm not happy about all the changes...in some cases, I feel blessed, in other cases, I feel that it could've gone better, and on some cases...I feel as if I've been rejected or refused. I'm not sure what to make of it, except that I feel as if everything isn't as they seem. Human beings are so complex with a mix of emotions that are sometimes just so hard to figure out and interpret that I really feel like that if things were talked over, things would've gone better.
I'm officially back in world of warcraft...spending time with my siblings has become a rare but always pleasureable thing to do, it's as if that being with them makes me feel at ease and peace the most, I realize how much I missed seeing them everyday. My current friends, or should I say, majority of them have become busy themselves, it's always about making the effort to stay in touch, yet what I'm makes me happy the most is when there's always that understand that no matter where we are in the world, or how close we are in distance, we'll always have that understanding that we're friends. I've been clammed up for too long and haven't gotten the chance to really tell how I feel, and I really wish that to a very special friend of mine, we can work out what we hold deep inside us instead of forever keeping our hidden thoughts.
I've always thought that honesty would get me to where I want to be, that no matter how painful the truth is, it should be told, that letting it out will make me feel better. But somehow the truth right is just so hard to bear and tell. I never wanted to throw away any of my friendships, nor do I want to hurt the feelings of those that I care for and love the most. As Macbeth comes to an end, a new chapter of my life will begin in which I will make my effort to become a full-time freelance manga artist.
I don't know how to express how I feel right now, but I feel sad, depressed, hurt, betrayed, untrusted, not cared for....so many things that bring tears to my eyes everytime I think about it. I don't know how it turned out this way but at this rate, it seems like I want to run away from my current life and hide, there's no way I can start anew, but it's not because I hate the people I'm seeing now, but because there's too many emotions inside me right now that makes me want to hide in the corner and cry them out for a week straight. And yet I don't know how to tell the people who are hurting the most, no matter how much I love them, how I really feel. The truth that I so want to say...has yet to be told.
On a more personal note...my life has changed...a lot.
I'm not happy about all the changes...in some cases, I feel blessed, in other cases, I feel that it could've gone better, and on some cases...I feel as if I've been rejected or refused. I'm not sure what to make of it, except that I feel as if everything isn't as they seem. Human beings are so complex with a mix of emotions that are sometimes just so hard to figure out and interpret that I really feel like that if things were talked over, things would've gone better.
I'm officially back in world of warcraft...spending time with my siblings has become a rare but always pleasureable thing to do, it's as if that being with them makes me feel at ease and peace the most, I realize how much I missed seeing them everyday. My current friends, or should I say, majority of them have become busy themselves, it's always about making the effort to stay in touch, yet what I'm makes me happy the most is when there's always that understand that no matter where we are in the world, or how close we are in distance, we'll always have that understanding that we're friends. I've been clammed up for too long and haven't gotten the chance to really tell how I feel, and I really wish that to a very special friend of mine, we can work out what we hold deep inside us instead of forever keeping our hidden thoughts.
I've always thought that honesty would get me to where I want to be, that no matter how painful the truth is, it should be told, that letting it out will make me feel better. But somehow the truth right is just so hard to bear and tell. I never wanted to throw away any of my friendships, nor do I want to hurt the feelings of those that I care for and love the most. As Macbeth comes to an end, a new chapter of my life will begin in which I will make my effort to become a full-time freelance manga artist.
I don't know how to express how I feel right now, but I feel sad, depressed, hurt, betrayed, untrusted, not cared for....so many things that bring tears to my eyes everytime I think about it. I don't know how it turned out this way but at this rate, it seems like I want to run away from my current life and hide, there's no way I can start anew, but it's not because I hate the people I'm seeing now, but because there's too many emotions inside me right now that makes me want to hide in the corner and cry them out for a week straight. And yet I don't know how to tell the people who are hurting the most, no matter how much I love them, how I really feel. The truth that I so want to say...has yet to be told.