Boys are stupid
Mike's planning on joining the marines in November...he's only waiting that long so he can be with his grandfather for his birthday in early November. What the fuck dude? Seriously, does this seem like a good idea? And it's not like I can really say much to him about it. We've had this conversation too many times for me to count and he definitely knows where I stand on the issue and I don't want to alienate him, but he is just being a little fucking coward. He's using the marines as an escape so that he can put off figuring out what he wants to do with his life. I admit, I have run from my problems, but I ran to California...he's running to the fucking marines. I can't deal with losing one of my best friends to the marines. I just can't. It was bad enough when I thought he was moving to Louisiana, but now he's pretty much on a suicide mission because if the marines doesn't kill him, I'm going to kill him for being such a dumbass and joining in the first place.
And then there's Jeff who has been confusing the hell out of me. We both have a fear of committment, definite fear of love, and neither one of us wants kids or marriage. So this should work out, right? Well, now he's confusing me, going back and forth between calling me a friend and then (sometimes in the same breath) telling me that we should date. I'd be cool with either (we're pretty much dating already anyways...we've been hanging out for about a month now, doing the whole date thing like movies or breakfast or coffee and I've spent the night at his place a lot)...I just want to know where I stand either way. That's all I want. I don't like not knowing where I stand.
Stupid stupid stupid boys. Why do you have to be so lame...and why do you have to be my best friends?
And then there's Jeff who has been confusing the hell out of me. We both have a fear of committment, definite fear of love, and neither one of us wants kids or marriage. So this should work out, right? Well, now he's confusing me, going back and forth between calling me a friend and then (sometimes in the same breath) telling me that we should date. I'd be cool with either (we're pretty much dating already anyways...we've been hanging out for about a month now, doing the whole date thing like movies or breakfast or coffee and I've spent the night at his place a lot)...I just want to know where I stand either way. That's all I want. I don't like not knowing where I stand.
Stupid stupid stupid boys. Why do you have to be so lame...and why do you have to be my best friends?