not the high school reunion we hoped for.
i don't even know the last time i posted here-- but sometimes things just make you stop in your tracks. attending the funeral of a 22 year old, a childhood friend, is one of those.
I don't remember every moment I ever spent with Dora- in fact right now I can't remember any specifically, maybe my mind just fails me- but I do know that I remember her fondly, she was always smiling. she was beautiful inside and out, and most importantly inside. she seemed to have seen the good in people- in all people. it was amazing the vast amount of people at the service today and even more amazing the different groups. it didn't matter what circle it was, dora was in it and everyone loved her. she had a special quality to be comfortable and friendly and genuine to everyone.
she had so much to offer and gave so much to the world- i wish it could have been as kind to her.
i think if there's one thing that can come out of this, at least for me, is that i've realized i want to take responsibility for not working harder to be a friend, to stay in touch. right now that weighs so heavily on me. seeing everyone today- it just makes me think. maybe, just maybe i can mend a bridge or two-- regain some things (people) that i have let go, and that i miss. maybe it isn't all my fault, the friendships (one in particular) that have slipped, but i know i definitely didn't try hard enough. maybe the past can be forgiven and maybe thats some hope in this sad time.
I don't remember every moment I ever spent with Dora- in fact right now I can't remember any specifically, maybe my mind just fails me- but I do know that I remember her fondly, she was always smiling. she was beautiful inside and out, and most importantly inside. she seemed to have seen the good in people- in all people. it was amazing the vast amount of people at the service today and even more amazing the different groups. it didn't matter what circle it was, dora was in it and everyone loved her. she had a special quality to be comfortable and friendly and genuine to everyone.
she had so much to offer and gave so much to the world- i wish it could have been as kind to her.
i think if there's one thing that can come out of this, at least for me, is that i've realized i want to take responsibility for not working harder to be a friend, to stay in touch. right now that weighs so heavily on me. seeing everyone today- it just makes me think. maybe, just maybe i can mend a bridge or two-- regain some things (people) that i have let go, and that i miss. maybe it isn't all my fault, the friendships (one in particular) that have slipped, but i know i definitely didn't try hard enough. maybe the past can be forgiven and maybe thats some hope in this sad time.