i'm a grown up. when did that happen?
* This summer is going to change my life. While it’s probably the least exciting summer I’ve ever planned for myself, it’s going to be instrumental in deciding what becomes of me from here on in. I have to kick this class’s ass, because my GPA is going to need all the help it can get once I start throwing chemistry and math at it in the fall. I’d also like to actually learn some Italian; I’d like to go to Italy next summer and speaking the language would be great, to whatever possible extent. And I guess in some ways, it really hit me today while I was talking to my mom: I’m grown up. I’m going to be 20 in November, and while that certainly isn’t old, I’m not a kid anymore. I would love to be one of those people who can say don’t grow up too fast, college is for experimenting, explore your dreams, but the reality is, I have bigger plans for myself then that. I don’t want to take forever to graduate college, as fun as it is; I want to live up to what I expect of myself. And I want to get enough done that I’m leading a young life, not falling behind the curve by a few years. I don’t want to feel like any of my time was wasted.
* I want to travel and have enough credits that my credits transferring isn’t the pivotal issue. I want to feel like I graduated college after getting everything out of it that I possibly could. And while drinking and going wild is fun, it stopped being enough for me a long time ago. I’m on the right track; I got another job, I’m spending time at the hospital and riding whenever possible. School’s the most important thing right now, but it doesn’t have to be the only thing in life. I just need to remember balance. I tend to get so obsessed with one thing and making one part of the puzzle work that I let the rest fall behind. And I need to watch myself; I’m too young to get so involved with anything specific. I need to grow up, but not too fast. I guess what I really want to know is when did everything get so complicated?
* I want to travel and have enough credits that my credits transferring isn’t the pivotal issue. I want to feel like I graduated college after getting everything out of it that I possibly could. And while drinking and going wild is fun, it stopped being enough for me a long time ago. I’m on the right track; I got another job, I’m spending time at the hospital and riding whenever possible. School’s the most important thing right now, but it doesn’t have to be the only thing in life. I just need to remember balance. I tend to get so obsessed with one thing and making one part of the puzzle work that I let the rest fall behind. And I need to watch myself; I’m too young to get so involved with anything specific. I need to grow up, but not too fast. I guess what I really want to know is when did everything get so complicated?