Reincarnated as a Guy or a Girl
Thank you to marusamarento for the beta.
Dedicated to: lametortoise (I promised 5 fics but I lost count. I think this is the 3rd? Please confirm XD!!!)
Theme: # 18 Genderswap for 21 theme fic meme
Pairing: Kangin/Sungmin (their gender changes from time to time)
Title: Reincarnated as a Guy or a Girl
The first time Sungmin met Kangin, Sungmin had been a boy and Kangin was a homophobe. But Kangin was kind so instead of throwing insults or fighting, he would try to avoid and ignore gay people instead. Sungmin decided to be just Kangin's friend in this life.
In the next life, when they met again, Sungmin was still a boy and Kangin was still homophobic. This time Sungmin decided to confess and see what would happen. Kangin told him that they should stop being friends. It wasn't a surprise for Sungmin when he was rejected, but they had been best friends in this life (and in their past lives - but only Sungmin knows that). He didn't think that Kangin was so homophobic as to actually stop being friends with him.
In their third life, Sungmin was very happy to have been born as a girl, but unlike in their past lives in which she grew up with Kangin as childhood friends and became best friends later on, she didn't grow up with Kangin in this life. She met Kangin in college which was too late because Kangin already got a girlfriend. Sungmin tried to break that relationship but didn't succeed so she only ended up as a bad person in Kangin's eyes.
In their 4th life, Sungmin was a boy again. He met Kangin when they were in kindergarten but somewhere through the elementary years, they grew apart. It was around high school when they ended up in detention for different reasons that Sungmin asked. "Do you believe in reincarnation?"
"Why? Are you trying to tell me that you're reincarnated?"
"It's not just me. You too."
"Oh really? So what were we in the past?" Kangin didn't believe about this reincarnation stuff but he decided to ask for fun.
"Friends, mostly. We were never anything more than that. You've always been homophobic. The first time I decided not to tell you anything so we were friends until death. The second time, I confessed so you rejected me and told me we shouldn't be friends anymore. Last time, I was born a girl so I thought I had a chance but when we met you were very much in love with another girl. I tried to beak you two up and you just ended up getting angry at me."
Kangin laughed, clearly not believing what Sungmin just said. "You sure are creative with your stories. You should be an author or something."
Sungmin sighed. "I wonder what my past selves ever did see in you."
"So you're saying that you don't have any feelings for me in this life?"
"I do." Sungmin admitted. "But it's probably just triggered by my past memories because in this life, I can't seem find any reason to like you."
"You liked me when we were kids." Kangin said, remembering how Sungmin always used to stick to his side and they always played together.
"It doesn't matter whether I like you or not, or if I'm born as a guy or a girl, or whether you believe in reincarnation or not, the fact is you won't love me no matter what."
For some reason, Kangin couldn't get Sungmin's words out of his mind even after detention when they went their separate ways.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
It wasn't until a week later when Kangin saw Sungmin alone in the library so he decided to take a seat beside Sungmin. "If we really are reincarnated, then why do you have memories but I don't?"
Sungmin was a surprised because he never expected Kangin would speak to him again. Besides, Kangin should have known by now that he is gay. "I can't tell you. If I do, I won't be able to regain my past memories."
"Don't you think it's better that way? That you don't have to remember me every time you are reborn. You would be able to love someone else and be happy. You're tired of hurting, aren't you?"
"I don't want to forget you." Sungmin placed a hand on top of Kangin's. He could feel Kangin tensing a bit and knows that it's because of the homophobia. "Despite all the hurt, there had been good memories." Then he removed his hand from Kangin, who looked like he was able to breath again.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
"I want to get over my homophobia."
Sungmin raised an eyebrow. "Go to a psychiatrist."
"That costs money. I want to get help from you. Besides, if you learn how to cure my homophobic side, then you would be able to remember how to do so in our next lives."
Sungmin blinked. That actually made sense. "Why are you doing this?"
"I kept on thinking what if I'm not homophobic, would I love you back?" Kangin reached out to hold Sungmin's hand. He counted the seconds 1... 2... 3... 4... 5... Just 5 seconds, then he let go of Sungmin's hand. "I want to be able to hold you longer than 5 seconds and hang out with you because I know you're a nice person despite being gay."
Sungmin smiled. He had the feeling that even if Kangin overcame his homophobia, Kangin still wouldn't love him. At least not in this lifetime but Sungmin would have a better chance with him in the next lifetime and maybe in the next lifetime, they would finally be together.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
In their next life, it turns out that Sungmin didn't need his new knowledge of treating a homophobia because even though he was still born was a boy, Kangin was born as a girl. For the first time, they actually ended up in a relationship and Sungmin was surprised how Kangin was very much in love with him.
In their sixth life, they were both born as girls but the funny thing was that Kangin wasn't homophobic and she was totally okay with lesbian relationships so it wasn't hard for Sungmin to make Kangin fall in love with her.
In their seventh life, they were both born as boys. Kangin was again homophobic. Sungmin had a hard time but he didn't give up. It wasn't until they were both in their late twenties when Kangin finally confessed that he loved Sungmin.
In their next generation of lives, Sungmin learned that it wasn't always a happy ending between him and Kangin but Kangin had always been in his life. That fact alone made Sungmin happy because even if they don't end up with each other in this life, Sungmin could always try again.
THE END
A/N: And with this, I finished my 21 theme fic meme!!! WOHOO!!! Now I only have my 10settings fic challenge to finish in which I have 2 themes left. Then there are 2 people I promised to write KyuMin and KiMin but after those 4 SuJu fics, I'll probably take up a fic challenge for Shinee because I really want to write Shinee lately but I want finish the SuJu fics I'm supposed to do first~
COMMENTS PLEASE~!!! ^___________^
Dedicated to: lametortoise (I promised 5 fics but I lost count. I think this is the 3rd? Please confirm XD!!!)
Theme: # 18 Genderswap for 21 theme fic meme
Pairing: Kangin/Sungmin (their gender changes from time to time)
Title: Reincarnated as a Guy or a Girl
The first time Sungmin met Kangin, Sungmin had been a boy and Kangin was a homophobe. But Kangin was kind so instead of throwing insults or fighting, he would try to avoid and ignore gay people instead. Sungmin decided to be just Kangin's friend in this life.
In the next life, when they met again, Sungmin was still a boy and Kangin was still homophobic. This time Sungmin decided to confess and see what would happen. Kangin told him that they should stop being friends. It wasn't a surprise for Sungmin when he was rejected, but they had been best friends in this life (and in their past lives - but only Sungmin knows that). He didn't think that Kangin was so homophobic as to actually stop being friends with him.
In their third life, Sungmin was very happy to have been born as a girl, but unlike in their past lives in which she grew up with Kangin as childhood friends and became best friends later on, she didn't grow up with Kangin in this life. She met Kangin in college which was too late because Kangin already got a girlfriend. Sungmin tried to break that relationship but didn't succeed so she only ended up as a bad person in Kangin's eyes.
In their 4th life, Sungmin was a boy again. He met Kangin when they were in kindergarten but somewhere through the elementary years, they grew apart. It was around high school when they ended up in detention for different reasons that Sungmin asked. "Do you believe in reincarnation?"
"Why? Are you trying to tell me that you're reincarnated?"
"It's not just me. You too."
"Oh really? So what were we in the past?" Kangin didn't believe about this reincarnation stuff but he decided to ask for fun.
"Friends, mostly. We were never anything more than that. You've always been homophobic. The first time I decided not to tell you anything so we were friends until death. The second time, I confessed so you rejected me and told me we shouldn't be friends anymore. Last time, I was born a girl so I thought I had a chance but when we met you were very much in love with another girl. I tried to beak you two up and you just ended up getting angry at me."
Kangin laughed, clearly not believing what Sungmin just said. "You sure are creative with your stories. You should be an author or something."
Sungmin sighed. "I wonder what my past selves ever did see in you."
"So you're saying that you don't have any feelings for me in this life?"
"I do." Sungmin admitted. "But it's probably just triggered by my past memories because in this life, I can't seem find any reason to like you."
"You liked me when we were kids." Kangin said, remembering how Sungmin always used to stick to his side and they always played together.
"It doesn't matter whether I like you or not, or if I'm born as a guy or a girl, or whether you believe in reincarnation or not, the fact is you won't love me no matter what."
For some reason, Kangin couldn't get Sungmin's words out of his mind even after detention when they went their separate ways.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
It wasn't until a week later when Kangin saw Sungmin alone in the library so he decided to take a seat beside Sungmin. "If we really are reincarnated, then why do you have memories but I don't?"
Sungmin was a surprised because he never expected Kangin would speak to him again. Besides, Kangin should have known by now that he is gay. "I can't tell you. If I do, I won't be able to regain my past memories."
"Don't you think it's better that way? That you don't have to remember me every time you are reborn. You would be able to love someone else and be happy. You're tired of hurting, aren't you?"
"I don't want to forget you." Sungmin placed a hand on top of Kangin's. He could feel Kangin tensing a bit and knows that it's because of the homophobia. "Despite all the hurt, there had been good memories." Then he removed his hand from Kangin, who looked like he was able to breath again.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
"I want to get over my homophobia."
Sungmin raised an eyebrow. "Go to a psychiatrist."
"That costs money. I want to get help from you. Besides, if you learn how to cure my homophobic side, then you would be able to remember how to do so in our next lives."
Sungmin blinked. That actually made sense. "Why are you doing this?"
"I kept on thinking what if I'm not homophobic, would I love you back?" Kangin reached out to hold Sungmin's hand. He counted the seconds 1... 2... 3... 4... 5... Just 5 seconds, then he let go of Sungmin's hand. "I want to be able to hold you longer than 5 seconds and hang out with you because I know you're a nice person despite being gay."
Sungmin smiled. He had the feeling that even if Kangin overcame his homophobia, Kangin still wouldn't love him. At least not in this lifetime but Sungmin would have a better chance with him in the next lifetime and maybe in the next lifetime, they would finally be together.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
In their next life, it turns out that Sungmin didn't need his new knowledge of treating a homophobia because even though he was still born was a boy, Kangin was born as a girl. For the first time, they actually ended up in a relationship and Sungmin was surprised how Kangin was very much in love with him.
In their sixth life, they were both born as girls but the funny thing was that Kangin wasn't homophobic and she was totally okay with lesbian relationships so it wasn't hard for Sungmin to make Kangin fall in love with her.
In their seventh life, they were both born as boys. Kangin was again homophobic. Sungmin had a hard time but he didn't give up. It wasn't until they were both in their late twenties when Kangin finally confessed that he loved Sungmin.
In their next generation of lives, Sungmin learned that it wasn't always a happy ending between him and Kangin but Kangin had always been in his life. That fact alone made Sungmin happy because even if they don't end up with each other in this life, Sungmin could always try again.
THE END
A/N: And with this, I finished my 21 theme fic meme!!! WOHOO!!! Now I only have my 10settings fic challenge to finish in which I have 2 themes left. Then there are 2 people I promised to write KyuMin and KiMin but after those 4 SuJu fics, I'll probably take up a fic challenge for Shinee because I really want to write Shinee lately but I want finish the SuJu fics I'm supposed to do first~
COMMENTS PLEASE~!!! ^___________^