Ideas returning?
I...actually have an idea for something. I'm not sure how feasible it is and it's definitely not one of my best..but I think I'm getting back to normal. Hopefully I'll be all better when I get back home next week. I'm kinda relieved. I don't want to be a burden to my sister or to Kei-kun.
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I'm slowly starting to be able to go through life without thinking about Yuki-kun and his girlfriend all the time. If this is what love is like, I'd rather go hide somewhere I'll never feel it again. Ryou-kun's advice was helpful...but I'm still soooooooo lost. At the same time, I want love and then I don't.
...I get hurt enough in real life and my experiments, I don't need to get hurt mentally as well. I'm just so tired of hurting and getting hurt. I don't know how other people do it. Maybe I'm weaker or something.... My mood's been going down recently, so I've been sleeping more so my sister can't tell that anything's wrong. Because then she'll tell nii-san and he'll feel guilty, and it's not him. He's...just a part of the problem, I suppose.
I had a dream a while back where I went to sleep for a very long time and woke up and the world had changed around me when I was unchanged. At that time, it was a nightmare, but I'd almost welcome it now. except Kei-kun and Yuu-kun and Gakkun and Ryou-kun and everyone wouldn't be around anymore or they'd be really old. That would be sad. But I'd like a nice long sleep for a few years or so to get my head on straight.
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I'm slowly starting to be able to go through life without thinking about Yuki-kun and his girlfriend all the time. If this is what love is like, I'd rather go hide somewhere I'll never feel it again. Ryou-kun's advice was helpful...but I'm still soooooooo lost. At the same time, I want love and then I don't.
...I get hurt enough in real life and my experiments, I don't need to get hurt mentally as well. I'm just so tired of hurting and getting hurt. I don't know how other people do it. Maybe I'm weaker or something.... My mood's been going down recently, so I've been sleeping more so my sister can't tell that anything's wrong. Because then she'll tell nii-san and he'll feel guilty, and it's not him. He's...just a part of the problem, I suppose.
I had a dream a while back where I went to sleep for a very long time and woke up and the world had changed around me when I was unchanged. At that time, it was a nightmare, but I'd almost welcome it now. except Kei-kun and Yuu-kun and Gakkun and Ryou-kun and everyone wouldn't be around anymore or they'd be really old. That would be sad. But I'd like a nice long sleep for a few years or so to get my head on straight.