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It just doesn't seem to get easier. it's been 4 fucking months and i still think about her as much as the day it happened and that's a whole lot. i'm just sad really, not really mad, but sad. i mean, i'm sad because i think about her a lot, even when i'm not looking at her or talking to her or talking about her and how i feel to people, i still think about her. i try to date other people and i think only of her, and yet i have no idea if she thinks of me. as it appears, she's forgotten me, even though she says otherwise. i dream one day she'll call me and ask me to have some coffee with her, though i doubt it'll ever happen. in truth, i think my only option is to move on and tell myself i'll find someone who will always love me, but i always felt she always loved me until all this happened. idk