my life as of late
I haven't updated this thing in forever, but I guess it's fitting I'm doing it on the eve before my 18th birthday, haha.
Yeah, I don't know what all to say. Stuff going on in my life right now:
- I start an internship with a professor at kendall college of art and design tomorrow. i'm a little nervous. well, a lot, actually.
- I'm going to ferris next year, but i'm still waiting for my acceptance letter. i'm getting in though, definitely. haha.
- i am really really really needing a job. a lot. i may possibly get an interview at charlotte rousse at woodland mall because my mom used to work with a manager there. i turned in an application yesterday, so hopefully something will happen.
- i am being emo because my love life has been shit lately. i really just want a boy that i like to like me back without silly complications. is that really too much to ask? seriously. am i really that unlovable? i dont think i am, but maybe? pfft. i dont know. self confidence minus 500 points.
- i'm getting sick of the number of people i know that are ruining their lives with drugs/alcohol/making bad choices.
- i'm also getting sick of the friends that i have that are immature and aren't making good choices that relate to their education and/or future. i'm starting to get really pissed whenever people joke around when they should be working.
- i really really need some new clothing. all of my clothes are falling apart and/or the wrong size. however, i need a job in order to get some new clothing. bleh.
- i'm going to chicago next month for a weekend to visit a couple of friends. i'm really really really excited, but i'm also worried about having enough money to go and do fun things. am's family is going to pay me a hundred bucks to dogsit for a week, though, so i should be good.
- i seriously want a boy. i hate that i feel so lonely, but it's really starting to get to me. i was all set to wait until next year when i'll be up at ferris, surrounded by new people, but i'm just really really effing lonely, and i hate it. HATE it! I really don't like feeling like I need somebody else around to make me happy. It's just.. incredibly distasteful. I don't really know what else to say.
- there are way way way too many fucking new kids at school, and there's two new girls named alex who are complete dumbasses and i hate them and want them to go die in a fire. so now there are five alexes in the school, which is never fun. also, most of the new kids are just.... dumb. and they're all freshmen or sophomores. the school is really going downhill and i feel really bad for the teachers. they've all handled much worse, though.
- i started a new class at kctc today - layout & design with ms. riolo. She seems a little spazzy and control-feakish, and also kind of bitchy, but i think she'll probably lighten up after getting to know us. i also think i'm going to learn a lot in the class, which is most important. i can't wait until rory fucks up so i can see her just tear into him, hahaha. what an idiot.
- i am also worried about melody, alicia, and my cousin. they are all going through some hard stuff right now, and i can't really help at all. it's really frustrating. i'm trying to find a way to get hannah out here for the summer. i can't believe i haven't seen her in over three years.
- i find it really hard to believe i'm turning 18 tomorrow. i still feel like some the lame 14 year old loser with no life and no friends that i used to be. it's just... weird. i don't want to grow up, sometimes. i'd really just love to stay like five years old forever and not worry about any of the stupid shit i'm stressed out about right now. i think that's another reason i'm looking forward to chicago so much - besides being in the city and seeing greg and roger - i can get away from everything for three days and not have to think about my life.
- i am a huge stresscase right now because of all of the above. so if i snap at you for something stupid, i'm sorry. also, if anybody wants to donate some hugs or snuggle time, feel free.
shit, son. i'm 18 now. legal. woo hoo.
GameBoyGirl99 (12:01:37 AM): congratulations
GameBoyGirl99 (12:01:44 AM): you can now have sex with eh creepy old men
morealexiaplease (12:01:58 AM): GEE THANKS I'LL BE SURE TO DO THAT ASAP
GameBoyGirl99 (12:02:10 AM): XD
Peace.
Yeah, I don't know what all to say. Stuff going on in my life right now:
- I start an internship with a professor at kendall college of art and design tomorrow. i'm a little nervous. well, a lot, actually.
- I'm going to ferris next year, but i'm still waiting for my acceptance letter. i'm getting in though, definitely. haha.
- i am really really really needing a job. a lot. i may possibly get an interview at charlotte rousse at woodland mall because my mom used to work with a manager there. i turned in an application yesterday, so hopefully something will happen.
- i am being emo because my love life has been shit lately. i really just want a boy that i like to like me back without silly complications. is that really too much to ask? seriously. am i really that unlovable? i dont think i am, but maybe? pfft. i dont know. self confidence minus 500 points.
- i'm getting sick of the number of people i know that are ruining their lives with drugs/alcohol/making bad choices.
- i'm also getting sick of the friends that i have that are immature and aren't making good choices that relate to their education and/or future. i'm starting to get really pissed whenever people joke around when they should be working.
- i really really need some new clothing. all of my clothes are falling apart and/or the wrong size. however, i need a job in order to get some new clothing. bleh.
- i'm going to chicago next month for a weekend to visit a couple of friends. i'm really really really excited, but i'm also worried about having enough money to go and do fun things. am's family is going to pay me a hundred bucks to dogsit for a week, though, so i should be good.
- i seriously want a boy. i hate that i feel so lonely, but it's really starting to get to me. i was all set to wait until next year when i'll be up at ferris, surrounded by new people, but i'm just really really effing lonely, and i hate it. HATE it! I really don't like feeling like I need somebody else around to make me happy. It's just.. incredibly distasteful. I don't really know what else to say.
- there are way way way too many fucking new kids at school, and there's two new girls named alex who are complete dumbasses and i hate them and want them to go die in a fire. so now there are five alexes in the school, which is never fun. also, most of the new kids are just.... dumb. and they're all freshmen or sophomores. the school is really going downhill and i feel really bad for the teachers. they've all handled much worse, though.
- i started a new class at kctc today - layout & design with ms. riolo. She seems a little spazzy and control-feakish, and also kind of bitchy, but i think she'll probably lighten up after getting to know us. i also think i'm going to learn a lot in the class, which is most important. i can't wait until rory fucks up so i can see her just tear into him, hahaha. what an idiot.
- i am also worried about melody, alicia, and my cousin. they are all going through some hard stuff right now, and i can't really help at all. it's really frustrating. i'm trying to find a way to get hannah out here for the summer. i can't believe i haven't seen her in over three years.
- i find it really hard to believe i'm turning 18 tomorrow. i still feel like some the lame 14 year old loser with no life and no friends that i used to be. it's just... weird. i don't want to grow up, sometimes. i'd really just love to stay like five years old forever and not worry about any of the stupid shit i'm stressed out about right now. i think that's another reason i'm looking forward to chicago so much - besides being in the city and seeing greg and roger - i can get away from everything for three days and not have to think about my life.
- i am a huge stresscase right now because of all of the above. so if i snap at you for something stupid, i'm sorry. also, if anybody wants to donate some hugs or snuggle time, feel free.
shit, son. i'm 18 now. legal. woo hoo.
GameBoyGirl99 (12:01:37 AM): congratulations
GameBoyGirl99 (12:01:44 AM): you can now have sex with eh creepy old men
morealexiaplease (12:01:58 AM): GEE THANKS I'LL BE SURE TO DO THAT ASAP
GameBoyGirl99 (12:02:10 AM): XD
Peace.