Dec 11, 2005 16:01
cinderella is over. no more pink tights. no more mazurka. no more costume issues. no more smoke breaks. no more washing my hands for the fun of it. no more eye liner. no more blush. no more breaking out. no more drama.
it's soooooo hard to do what you actually want to do. i've always felt like everyone should always do whatever it takes to make themselves happy.. that kinda sounds selfish when i type it out like that.. but whatev.. but what if it hurts other people? and makes them unhappy? what will they have to do to become happy again? where do we draw the line of what we do to be happy? i'm happy now. but i think i could be happier. drama. fucking drama. thats what prevents us from being completly happy. because if we do exactly what we want to do, other people get jealous.. and talk shit about you. and i would totaly be ok with people talking about me.. but it's hard when you see them everyday in class and rehearsal..
what do you do? honestly?
it's hard. it's hard to be happy..
and exhausting.