i can't fucking defy gravity

[jirafff]

i don't know why i thought coming home would make everything better. i'm still alone. and i'm still drunk at 730. the past 2 days were awesome.. i wasn't drunk. i wasn't high. and i got to talk to tracy and katie. i haven't had a clear thought in so long. i've never been like this. not in control of my own thoughts. i hate it. i hate being that boy who can't get over it and got his heart broken. i can't get over. i'm sorry. and i hate it. i fucking wish i could. and i regret it alllllll sooo fucking much.

the subject is true.

i can't fucking defy gravity.