Oct 15, 2005 13:06
so, as i sit here drowning my existence to musici glanced out my window and was reminded that it is slightly cloudy today. its those big dark clouds, just hanging there, and thats when i remembered that i havnt seen rain in a loong time. and with that i realized that i miss winter, and i suppose the memories i have tied to it. but at any rate i cant wait for the change, even though generally im not havin such a good time, i suppose i enjoy it nontheless...or however you spell it. a sad sort of happiness, but a fulfilling one. maybe its also that i really havnt just done some walkin at night...mebbe tonight....hmmm, people generally complain about missing the good memories of the past, but if you look at it right it just leaves you with this calm satisfied happiness, slightly pained yes, but still happy. hmm, well, im off to change my way of thinkin...