Gut Reactions
And the winner of the Heaviest Eyelid Contest is...
So I'm some sort of masochist for updating when I've promised myself that bed is coming. After closing down the library last night and getting up early to do homework (though not actually accomplishing much), it's 9:30 and I'm beat. I've lacked sufficient energy to do much of anything today... including care about things that usually distract me... La Bohemia (which, let's face it, it's done me some good to step back from for a day), email and LJ, and my Thursday night programming lineup. I also find myself really dragging ass in my classes. This week I have not been on my A game, methinks.
I'm not sure what's wrong with me, but I experienced physical reactions to stress or lack of stress management or whatever it is that I've been dealing with today. For the most part of the day, my brain has been in a haze and I've had this... discomfort. For lack of better description, it's the feeling you get when you're nervous or guilty... like a tightness in your throat and a clenching in your stomach. That's me. In a nutshell. All day long. I'm sure part of it is psychological. Good thing I've got that counselling center appointment on Monday.
It's storming outside and I love it. It makes me think of Neppy's latest post when she talked about wanting to share some of the little things and her experiences in Africa:
"And when the stars are out here, when the sun is setting, when a storm is rolling in it would be more complete if Tara were here to say something needlessly poetic or deep."
I want to remember that always.
So I'm some sort of masochist for updating when I've promised myself that bed is coming. After closing down the library last night and getting up early to do homework (though not actually accomplishing much), it's 9:30 and I'm beat. I've lacked sufficient energy to do much of anything today... including care about things that usually distract me... La Bohemia (which, let's face it, it's done me some good to step back from for a day), email and LJ, and my Thursday night programming lineup. I also find myself really dragging ass in my classes. This week I have not been on my A game, methinks.
I'm not sure what's wrong with me, but I experienced physical reactions to stress or lack of stress management or whatever it is that I've been dealing with today. For the most part of the day, my brain has been in a haze and I've had this... discomfort. For lack of better description, it's the feeling you get when you're nervous or guilty... like a tightness in your throat and a clenching in your stomach. That's me. In a nutshell. All day long. I'm sure part of it is psychological. Good thing I've got that counselling center appointment on Monday.
It's storming outside and I love it. It makes me think of Neppy's latest post when she talked about wanting to share some of the little things and her experiences in Africa:
"And when the stars are out here, when the sun is setting, when a storm is rolling in it would be more complete if Tara were here to say something needlessly poetic or deep."
I want to remember that always.