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Yep.
will riyath showed brandon my last entry because i was upset.
This one's probably going be my last, or i wont make much more. because i dont see the point of updating anymore if it just ruins everyone's lives and im just bitching and being a hypocrite and talking shit.
Or I'll make a new one.
I'm not able to watch what i say, even if i DONT mean it.
I just havent been myself and the fact that ive been crying every night because im a fucking pussy cunt face dick head doesnt help either.
If he dumps me, i deserve every bit.
Then i deserve to rot in my room, and sleep, and cry, and sleep.
because im a pathetic waste of flesh and waste of space and air, and im a waste of his time.
I had a bad feeling riyath was going to show him. Not like it's my journal or anything and i've been flipping and having nervous break downs constantly, and i should be able to say what ever i want in here.
If brandon doesnt beleive that he's my life, my soul, and everything in between, everything ive ever loved, and everything ive ever needed, or cared for this much, then i cant make him.
Just because of a sentence almost two years will be ruined and it will be because of me?
I'm shaking, I'm crying, And my heart's beating faster than i can take breaths.
And I'm sorry.
Thats okay. I deserve every fucking bit that i get.
will riyath showed brandon my last entry because i was upset.
This one's probably going be my last, or i wont make much more. because i dont see the point of updating anymore if it just ruins everyone's lives and im just bitching and being a hypocrite and talking shit.
Or I'll make a new one.
I'm not able to watch what i say, even if i DONT mean it.
I just havent been myself and the fact that ive been crying every night because im a fucking pussy cunt face dick head doesnt help either.
If he dumps me, i deserve every bit.
Then i deserve to rot in my room, and sleep, and cry, and sleep.
because im a pathetic waste of flesh and waste of space and air, and im a waste of his time.
I had a bad feeling riyath was going to show him. Not like it's my journal or anything and i've been flipping and having nervous break downs constantly, and i should be able to say what ever i want in here.
If brandon doesnt beleive that he's my life, my soul, and everything in between, everything ive ever loved, and everything ive ever needed, or cared for this much, then i cant make him.
Just because of a sentence almost two years will be ruined and it will be because of me?
I'm shaking, I'm crying, And my heart's beating faster than i can take breaths.
And I'm sorry.
Thats okay. I deserve every fucking bit that i get.