I love this place
Who would have thought that school would have ended up being one of my favorite places to be? This is the place I love. This is where I want to be. This is where my heart is. This is where my home is.
I'll be sad when the relaxed, fun, silly days are over. I have had so much fun just spending time with my roomies and hanging out. Yeah, we've spent a lot of time sitting in the living room. But we've been crafting and creating, and of course playing Harry Potter. The time together has just been calm and peaceful and nice.
"Blessed be the Name" just came on the radio. I was finally able to get WIBI in my room a few mornings ago. I think it really does change things to be able to listen to it. I've had a bit of a change over the past almost two months. I spent a lot of the semester not even wanting to want to grow. I haven't made a lot of progress yet, but at least now I'm either wanting to grow or wanting to want to grow. The other night I was driving home from the store after giving into my desire to have ice cream, and I just wanted to be in the Word. I'm going to try to finish the chunks of Beth Moore that I avoided the past semester. I am going to work in baby steps to move back in the direction I was going when last May came. I do have some apologies to make to a few people for being a crappy friend this past semester. I'm working on those, coming up with what I want to say so that I'll be prepared when (ever) they come back. I think more than ever I've seen the impact of my choices. I kept myself out of the community forming here. By shutting myself off from it, (I know this sounds obvious) I shut myself off from it. I let down friends and didn't hold up my end of the deal. So they went elsewhere, and when I saw that it hurt. I wanted to be there, but I couldn't/wouldn't. Before I could have been a help, but I was unable to do anything. So now when (ever) I see the bonds that were formed without me and because of me, I get a pang of sadness, shame, and disappointment in myself. I have no one to blame but myself for not being a part of what's been going on. I'm going to get back on the horse and try again.
I really only made one resolution for the year. It's to be better with my money. I've been ok so far. I've only made one purchase with my debit card this year. I had cash that I've been using. We'll see how this goes. I already paid for my birthday present for myself, and I'll get that on February 18th. It's a lil past my birthday, but I'll still enjoy it.
I've made my decision to go on the spring break mission trip with CSF. Minnesota is going to be cold, but at least it doesn't involve a 10 hour plane ride with sick people (including myself). What is the temperature in Minnesota in March? Do any of my faithful readers know that? ;) It'll be a balmy 60 degrees, right? lol, I know better.
I should be sleeping now. I have another full day of what ever I find to do ahead of me.
I'll be sad when the relaxed, fun, silly days are over. I have had so much fun just spending time with my roomies and hanging out. Yeah, we've spent a lot of time sitting in the living room. But we've been crafting and creating, and of course playing Harry Potter. The time together has just been calm and peaceful and nice.
"Blessed be the Name" just came on the radio. I was finally able to get WIBI in my room a few mornings ago. I think it really does change things to be able to listen to it. I've had a bit of a change over the past almost two months. I spent a lot of the semester not even wanting to want to grow. I haven't made a lot of progress yet, but at least now I'm either wanting to grow or wanting to want to grow. The other night I was driving home from the store after giving into my desire to have ice cream, and I just wanted to be in the Word. I'm going to try to finish the chunks of Beth Moore that I avoided the past semester. I am going to work in baby steps to move back in the direction I was going when last May came. I do have some apologies to make to a few people for being a crappy friend this past semester. I'm working on those, coming up with what I want to say so that I'll be prepared when (ever) they come back. I think more than ever I've seen the impact of my choices. I kept myself out of the community forming here. By shutting myself off from it, (I know this sounds obvious) I shut myself off from it. I let down friends and didn't hold up my end of the deal. So they went elsewhere, and when I saw that it hurt. I wanted to be there, but I couldn't/wouldn't. Before I could have been a help, but I was unable to do anything. So now when (ever) I see the bonds that were formed without me and because of me, I get a pang of sadness, shame, and disappointment in myself. I have no one to blame but myself for not being a part of what's been going on. I'm going to get back on the horse and try again.
I really only made one resolution for the year. It's to be better with my money. I've been ok so far. I've only made one purchase with my debit card this year. I had cash that I've been using. We'll see how this goes. I already paid for my birthday present for myself, and I'll get that on February 18th. It's a lil past my birthday, but I'll still enjoy it.
I've made my decision to go on the spring break mission trip with CSF. Minnesota is going to be cold, but at least it doesn't involve a 10 hour plane ride with sick people (including myself). What is the temperature in Minnesota in March? Do any of my faithful readers know that? ;) It'll be a balmy 60 degrees, right? lol, I know better.
I should be sleeping now. I have another full day of what ever I find to do ahead of me.