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Lee Jin Sung, Kim Min Soo, Monday Kiz. I set this maybe two months after the motorcycle accident that killed Kim Min Soo. Lee Jin Sung has moved on, in at least part of his life. He's recorded a solo album, Letter, which is just as brilliant as anything the original Monday Kiz has done, but different.
I deleted the original off microsoft word, then realized there were some discrepancies so I had to patch it up on my own. This is weird. Erased things.
Early mornings are a painful time. The call had come for him when the light was just beginning to creep over the walls.
An accident, fatality, they were very sorry.
In a distant voice. But then again it’s impossible to understand reality through that thick curtain of pain that extends infinitely, that is a third world unto itself.
What had he been? Horribly shocked. He’d said he’d never ride a motorbike again. Memories of him in hospital, an arm and a leg thickly bound up, more solid than ever in yellowy gauze. Fully come out of a long sleep by the time visitors after immediate family had been allowed in, not quite there and not quite hurting because of all the pain meds. Going all warm inside when he saw that he would be alright again...that he’d survived a calamity, perhaps God was always watching over him.
He feels an earthquake tremor in the bluedark sitting room, grief gathering all its latent force to take another swing at him. He’ll never understand. He’ll always be angry at the thin air that took him away.
Dawn takes him back back back as if that's the only real thing in this world, all faded and forlorn. It's not just a phase, he mutters all alone. And so he's given up sleeping in to face things that will be there, whether or not he chooses to give them notice. The last memory. A scar. A star. An unreadable sign, a presence of what used to be there.
Can anyone understand just how vanished everything feels?
Looking at the ceiling, he sees cracks slowly appear. From the place farthest from the window. Outlines of rough paintwork. All the things he already knows. No answers.