a face to the name that dampened days... and I'm caught up reminscing
i hate the rain...
Ask me a question. Ask me two questions at that. It can be a general question or even a personal question. And just maybe I'll answer these questions. lol. I would like to know what people think of me or how I come across most as. Everything from first impressions to friendships. Deep down how do I come across everyone that I know. People think I'm nice. Some people think I'm too nice. Some think I'm desperate and others think that I'm not over the last. Am I the one that everybody can feel safe with and be best buddies with? Or somewhere out there is there someone that wants me more than just that. Have I lost that very opportunity? Or is it just me? I want to know. You can be anonymous or you can be yourself. I believe in trust. People have their opinions and to a certain extent it does affect me of how others perceive me. One of these days I would like to not be the nice guy, but the jerk that all girls fall for. For once in my life again, I want to have that feeling. Cuz after all, isn't that something that everybody deserves?
And once again I'm at that crossroad in my life... the past is never gone. Haven't learned to walk again, crippled in my whirlwind of thoughts and solitude. Regret nothing. It's a shame though, I always find it hard to lie to myself. So if you ever ask me "how you been..?" know that my answer is this... I'm that one guy that hasn't got what everybody else has. And yeah, it's a part of me that I... need. Man up. Be a man about it, right? Like I said, one of these days I'd like to be that jerk...