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Stronger than you think --
Well, as far as I've seen it. It's never out of "luck" or chance, but always comes to you as a choice. I believe every single individual is a strong human being, it just depends on yourself and what level of understanding you'd like to be on - and grow from. So then, we have people who think they're always right & know everything, or the ones who think that a miracle will shine right in front of their pretty eyes, or even the "live fast, play hard," individuals. But whoever we are or what our personalities mold us to be, it always takes an effort, listening ears, a tough heart, an expandable mind, and the willingness to give risk a chance to step into your life... not to mention, the effort of yourself grabbing life by its hand and taking the turn to lead.
I realized something today that made me sick to my stomach. To live every day knowing that the people who surround you and make up 95% of your world is against you in what you dream of can make it a bit difficult to sleep peacefully at night. Having the feeling of not knowing what to do but breakdown into the arms of the ones who do understand... where else do you go? Hiding is no option - running away doesn't solve any problem. But how about a "break." A "breather," as I'd like to call it. Time to yourself. Time to reconnect with yourself. To breathe air while not having to hear the nagging and complaining of how the way you're living life is so wrong and leaving you with a choice that in the end, has no glory or victory to them. But to you, what you have, what you're going through is the greatest, one of the most worthwhile things you've ever experienced. Yes, it can feel like hell. But not all masterpieces start off with just one brush stroke and finished in one day. "Rome wasn't built in a day," type of thing.
So that's a bit cliche, but hey, if it makes you realize something that you never thought of before, then my friend, you've just gained insight and a totally different perspective. I've learned so much in the past seven months - about myself, about people, my family, my friends, and my dreams. Funny, how I fell so low that to a point, I began to try and tell myself, "California.. Michigan... here... isn't what I want, that's not where I want to be." Discouragement. Feeling lost. Quitting before I even got there. So what I thought was going to last, didn't even seem to last for a second. But you know what I learned, although it is bad, I will admit, the person I eventually became, is definately not the person I want to be. I left her with a piece of me that I hope will be remembered briefly years from now, but I realized that, what I thought I lost, I only left behind. And what I left behind was just a small piece, not all of me. So here I was, walking around emotionless and brainless for the past few months hurting myself. Crying over what? Bleeding for what? Sleepless nights for what? Yes, it hurted. And yeah, I cried like a baby. I don't have pride blinding me so I will admit to the weaknesses that were overpowering my strengths.
But now, all I want to do is live happy. Grow better. Be better. Help others who can't seem to find their ways. And if I can't lead them all the way, then let me guide them today and have faith in them that they will find the rest of their way tomorrow. Faith. Patience. Strength. Understanding. Put faith in all you do and pray. Stay close to that feeling, He will never let you lose yourself at the darkest of times. Patience, "Rome wasn't built in a day," and there is a time and place for everything, but don't miss your chance. Even when you feel like you're not ready and if it is uncomfortable, take a risk, go take that jump, and if you happen to fall, I'm sure the ones that love you will be standing right there, reaching out for you. Strength - is nothing but pure understanding. Understand yourself, your situations, take in the different perspectives that everyone stresses into your brain - and communicate. Let your voice be heard. Don't fear in telling people how you feel. Change for no one. You're just as important. i'm just as important.
Well, as far as I've seen it. It's never out of "luck" or chance, but always comes to you as a choice. I believe every single individual is a strong human being, it just depends on yourself and what level of understanding you'd like to be on - and grow from. So then, we have people who think they're always right & know everything, or the ones who think that a miracle will shine right in front of their pretty eyes, or even the "live fast, play hard," individuals. But whoever we are or what our personalities mold us to be, it always takes an effort, listening ears, a tough heart, an expandable mind, and the willingness to give risk a chance to step into your life... not to mention, the effort of yourself grabbing life by its hand and taking the turn to lead.
I realized something today that made me sick to my stomach. To live every day knowing that the people who surround you and make up 95% of your world is against you in what you dream of can make it a bit difficult to sleep peacefully at night. Having the feeling of not knowing what to do but breakdown into the arms of the ones who do understand... where else do you go? Hiding is no option - running away doesn't solve any problem. But how about a "break." A "breather," as I'd like to call it. Time to yourself. Time to reconnect with yourself. To breathe air while not having to hear the nagging and complaining of how the way you're living life is so wrong and leaving you with a choice that in the end, has no glory or victory to them. But to you, what you have, what you're going through is the greatest, one of the most worthwhile things you've ever experienced. Yes, it can feel like hell. But not all masterpieces start off with just one brush stroke and finished in one day. "Rome wasn't built in a day," type of thing.
So that's a bit cliche, but hey, if it makes you realize something that you never thought of before, then my friend, you've just gained insight and a totally different perspective. I've learned so much in the past seven months - about myself, about people, my family, my friends, and my dreams. Funny, how I fell so low that to a point, I began to try and tell myself, "California.. Michigan... here... isn't what I want, that's not where I want to be." Discouragement. Feeling lost. Quitting before I even got there. So what I thought was going to last, didn't even seem to last for a second. But you know what I learned, although it is bad, I will admit, the person I eventually became, is definately not the person I want to be. I left her with a piece of me that I hope will be remembered briefly years from now, but I realized that, what I thought I lost, I only left behind. And what I left behind was just a small piece, not all of me. So here I was, walking around emotionless and brainless for the past few months hurting myself. Crying over what? Bleeding for what? Sleepless nights for what? Yes, it hurted. And yeah, I cried like a baby. I don't have pride blinding me so I will admit to the weaknesses that were overpowering my strengths.
But now, all I want to do is live happy. Grow better. Be better. Help others who can't seem to find their ways. And if I can't lead them all the way, then let me guide them today and have faith in them that they will find the rest of their way tomorrow. Faith. Patience. Strength. Understanding. Put faith in all you do and pray. Stay close to that feeling, He will never let you lose yourself at the darkest of times. Patience, "Rome wasn't built in a day," and there is a time and place for everything, but don't miss your chance. Even when you feel like you're not ready and if it is uncomfortable, take a risk, go take that jump, and if you happen to fall, I'm sure the ones that love you will be standing right there, reaching out for you. Strength - is nothing but pure understanding. Understand yourself, your situations, take in the different perspectives that everyone stresses into your brain - and communicate. Let your voice be heard. Don't fear in telling people how you feel. Change for no one. You're just as important. i'm just as important.