Things are just strange
Kathryn went to ex-boyfriend's party last night. I don't know how to feel about it. I trust her, yet I wish she would atleast act like she's having fun when we're together. Recently she has been acting very "tired" around me, but she always lightens up when she goes to Yogi/Katie/Kathy's apt (which is odd, obviously she doesn't like being alone with me anymore, right?!) And i mean "tired" as in an excuse to mask real emotion. I guess she's falling out of love. dunno. i guess i'll have to talk to her about it. she's getting too stressed out about her future i think. which is understandable, but i think that if we all got stressed out like she does then, no one would ever be happy. maybe i just feel like i've been taken for granted, i'm not quite sure. but it doesn't make any sense to ask someone to act happy around you when they aren't really happy. that's not truthful at all and not what i want. I guess i just wish she was happy on her own terms and would atleast do something or ask me to do something to make her feel better. Maybe it's me. It's probably my whining and bitching. who knows? Rose knows. it's true b/c it rhymes. I apologize for sounding like a freshman in high school, but I don't do melancholy often, i promise.