Part 2 Prompt: #106 Open Doors, Open Hearts

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Abashedly, Luhan stared at the floor. He knew that Sehun was right and that made it all the more disconcerting for him.

“Because you know yourself that these words are usually said with more than the intention of friendship,” Sehun closed his explanation. “So please forgive me that I'm very confused about your intentions towards me. And lately I began to think that not even you know what your intentions are…so please enlighten me.”

Luhan started to reply several times but he couldn't bring himself to answer. There was still the blockade in his mind and he couldn't move it. Or maybe he didn't want to.

Sehun saw how Luhan fought with himself and scurried closer. “Hey … What's going on?” Softly he nudged his shoulder.

“I … just don't know, Sehun …” Luhan shook his head slightly. “I'm so confused.”

“Why?”

“I don't know that either.”

Sehun noticed how the older had his fingers tightly gripped into the cushioning of the couch, so he stretched out his own to grab it and reassuringly caressed the back of Luhan's hand with his thumb. “You don't have to be afraid, you know …”

“I'm not afraid.”

“Are you sure?”

Luhan didn't answer and just bit his lip instead.

Hesitatingly Sehun brought his other hand forward to lift up Luhan's chin so that he could look into his big, sparkling eyes again that reflected the Christmas lights so beautifully. Luhan was so breathtakingly gorgeous that Sehun's breath literally got stuck in his throat. He saw how the older's gaze wandered over his face and shortly lingered at his lips.

Sehun couldn't suppress a small smirk. Daringly, he leaned forward and brought Luhan's chin forward who didn't seem to object at all. Shortly before their lips met, Sehun paused, giving Luhan enough time to back out but nothing happened.

Their hot breaths meshed with one another and a tense atmosphere enraptured them.

Sehun closed the gap and laid his lips on Luhan's. Softly, tenderly at first he nibbled at them and repeated small, innocent kisses that Luhan returned timidly. Then when he felt more self-assured in their kiss, he turned it up a notch and began to indulge with more passion and force behind his kisses. Luhan's taste was so addictive and he wouldn't be able to get enough of it any time soon. He buried his fingers in Luhan's hair and pulled his body closer.

A breathless gasp escaped Luhan's trembling lips when he also took the initiative and pulled Sehun towards him with his collar.
Sehun couldn't believe that this was working out. Fucking hell, he was kissing the drop-dead handsome guy he was having a crush on for several months now and who he was sure of to be in love with. And he was kissing him!!! And Luhan was kissing him back!!!

Their kisses grew more and more wild and ardent. Sehun didn't know what else might have happened if not for a tired voice that suddenly called out: “Daddy, I had a bad dream and - … uh …”

As if he was hit by lightning, Luhan sat up straight within a second - clothes utterly disheveled, hair a mess and panting loudly. “You … what …?”

Sehun gulped and bit his lip. Now this was situation he was not prepared for at all.

Huan looked suspiciously at them. “Daddy … are you gay?”

Luhan was lying wide awake all night thinking about what happened earlier before Huan interrupted them and Sehun left.

He had been kissing the younger. He would be lying if he said that it wasn't anything short of great. The feeling of Sehun's lips on his was still ingrained in his memory and it would be for a very long time. Luhan felt a surge of fire rushing through him while recalling the arousing sensation.

Sehun's luring kisses had completely captivated Luhan's confused and curious tongue to engage in the passionate dance that inflamed a pleasure in his core that he didn't even know he could have.

And now Luhan had to face the obvious problem. The blockade was no longer there. Suddenly, it was all openly laid out in front of him. He could see it all. The teasing looks, the flirty remarks, the lovely compliments, the tender touches and greedy kisses, the insatiable passion and … a warm happy future.

But Luhan didn't know whether he was ready yet. He often liked to believe that at some point he could mend his old life back together again with a great career, a mother for his son and pleased parents. He knew once he agreed to the live the life he knew he could have with Sehun, once he agreed on letting go of his past; there were no chances in getting it back and he would ultimately have to face the truth that some things were gone forever.

He should give into Sehun, he knew that. His heart was screaming at him that the choice was so obvious. Sehun adored him, loved him even. When had Luhan ever been so happy than when he was with him? Nothing was worth waiting for if he could have this right now.

Luhan missed the feeling of being loved - from someone else aside his son that was. The feelings that Sehun awakened in him were so powerful and so fulfilling. Luhan knew that sooner or later he would no longer be able to avoid the younger's advances. Because it wasn't that Sehun was oblivious. The other had indeed a fairly good idea of what was going on inside Luhan's head. The better they got to know each other, the better he was able to read Luhan.

He wouldn't be able to outrun the younger's disarming charms any longer. And he didn't even want to anymore. There were still a lot of things that worried him about the situation but he would not avoid Sehun's feelings anymore. He would try.

But first there was one thing that he needed to do. Someone he needed to talk to.

He needed closure.

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Sehun felt so winged when he went grocery shopping the next day. He also planned on spending New Year’s Eve with Luhan and Huan and wanted to try out one of the recipes out of his cooking book.

The kiss with Luhan was still stuck in his memory and he couldn't feel any better. He would kiss Luhan all day if he could. And Sehun was now positive that yes, it was definitely love. Any other description wouldn't do his feelings justice. If he got the chance he would shower Luhan with his love every day, every night until there was no bad feeling left in the elder’s life and heart.

Joyfully Sehun left the supermarket with full bags and a smile on his face. He couldn't remember when he last felt this relieved and optimistic. He already thought of how he would spent the evening with them. Would Huan be allowed to stay up until midnight? Would he and Luhan have time afterwards?

He wondered if Luhan would willingly engage in something more than kissing. Sehun didn't want to sound overly horny and desperate but of course he did think about that too.

Anyways, he couldn't wait to get back home and -

Sehun halted in his movements.

There. Across the street, in front of a rather bedraggled building stood Luhan. Or someone that could have been Luhan if that person hadn't bowed down to kiss a woman about his age softly on the forehead. He gave her a hug and then turned around to leave.

Sehun felt as if a stake just got pierced through his heart. This couldn't be real. There was no way that what he just saw could be reality. No way, no no no … Luhan wouldn't do that to him. Luhan wouldn't.

But the guy turned towards a crosswalk and Sehun could clearly see his face.

It was Luhan.

Paralyzed by shock and pain, the bag with groceries fell to the ground. He couldn't believe that Luhan would betray and deceive him like this. What a joke Sehun and his feelings must have been for him all the time!

Luhan heard the impact of the bag and looked up, just to see Sehun gaping at him, aghast. Slowly Sehun shook his head, still unable to process and stumbled backwards.

That's when Luhan realized what Sehun must have just witnessed and instinctively he dashed across the street to run after the younger. “Wait, Sehun, it's not what it looks like! Sehun, wait!” he called after him in desperation. Cold fear gripped Luhan and a shiver ran down his spine. If he lost Sehun like this, he would never forgive himself for his stupidity.

Sehun ran fast. He wanted to get away from this heartbreaking picture as fast as possible. Had Luhan just been playing with him all the time? He couldn't handle that there was someone else. And a woman at that. He had been such a fool. He should have known when to quit once Luhan told him that he was not interested in him.

“Sehun, wait. I need to talk to you!” he heard Luhan shouting after him but Sehun just ran faster. He couldn't handle it. He had to deal with so much rejection already but this was too much. Simply too much.

Sehun's legs were longer so it took Luhan a while until he caught up with Sehun and once he did he grabbed his arm and pulled him into the next alleyway to push him against the wall.

Fresh tears were rolling down Sehun’s cheeks and the sheer sight of it was breaking Luhan heart. It angered him that he himself was the cause of Sehun's distress. “It's not what it looks like, Sehun,” he repeated breathlessly.

“What do you want from me?” Sehun hiccupped. “Haven't you caused enough damage already?”

“Sehun, will you please listen. I can explain.”

But Sehun didn't listen as another sob shook through him. “Have I been a good distraction? Was it fun playing with my feelings? Was it cool to know that I look after your kid while you fuck some girl?”

“That was Huan's mother, goddammit!” Luhan shouted now and Sehun swallowed the remark he was about to spit out. “I'm not together with her anymore but I don't hate her either. She's still a friend of mine. Do you understand?”

“No, I don't. That didn't look like friends at all!” Sehun refuted. “Why would you still meet her after what she did to you and your son? I don't understand at all.”

“Because it's not her fault,” Luhan replied bitterly in a desperate attempt to explain himself.

“How can it not be her fault?” Sehun asked with grim expression, ready to run away again.

“Because she's schizophrenic, okay?”

“She's what?”

“She's got huge psychological issues. The place you saw us at was the psychiatry, alright? She used to be in the secure unit, now she's in the open unit since her condition is improving.”

Sehun had not expected that answer and gulped.

Luhan noticed how the other had calm down a little. “Can I explain now?”

“Go on.”

“She had a tough childhood and it caused her to develop the issues she has now. I figured that out only after I got together with her. She never wanted kids because she was too afraid she would treat her own children like her parents treated her. So when she gave birth to Huan, she couldn't take it and had a complete breakdown. They sent her to the psychiatry right afterwards. That's why it's too dangerous for both her and Huan to see each other. Maybe in the far future, they can meet each other when her condition has improved enough and Huan is old enough to understand. But I don't blame her for her state.”

“I'm sorry to hear that,” Sehun muttered and bit his lip. “But why are you still so close?”

“Because she's the mother of my son. And because I don't hate her, like I said. I still consider her a friend of mine. I still visit her in the psychiatry from time to time to tell her how things are going. To be honest, until recently I had always hoped that somehow she would recover quickly so she could join our family. But I now realized that this has always just been wishful thinking. Today I came to have closure with that idea. I told her that I wasn't able to wait for her anymore and that I found someone else. And she seemed glad to hear that …”

“Oh …”

“That someone is you, Sehun.” Luhan raised his hand to caress the younger's cheek and wipe away the dried tears. “I know I gave you lots of mixed signals in the past because I didn't know what I wanted. But I do know now …”

He weaved his fingers into Sehun's fluffy hair and pulled him down into a loving kiss that Sehun first seemed unwilling to return but soon his resolve crumbled and kissed Luhan back just as fiery and willing.

“I love you, Sehun,” Luhan whispered. “I know it's just been about a month that we properly got know each other, but I'm sure.”

“I love you, too,” Sehun replied hoarsely. “Since probably the first day I met you.”

Luhan chuckled and turned red. “Oh my goodness …”

~

“And I will stay up until I see the fireworks!” Huan decided.

“Well, if you say so, little king …” Sehun chuckled. “But I'm gonna tell you. You will probably fall asleep before anyway. Since you just so desperately needed to watch one more DVD yesterday evening, you have been tired all day.”

“And I tell youuuuu that I WILL stay up until midnight!” Huan fought back.

“We will see …”

“Yes, we will! And if you don't trust me or if you cheat, Kalla will eat you.”

“Not if Yaki eats Kalla first,” Sehun refuted with a smug grin and pulled out his old plush lion.

Huan gasped. “He wouldn't dare! Kalla can eat everything.”

“And so can Yaki!” Sehun made a growling noises and pretended the lion to snap after Huan who squealed in childish panic.

“Daddy, help meeee! Sehun will let me get eaten by a lion!”

Luhan stumbled into the living room with laughter. “Do I have to take care of two children now?”

“Only one!” Huan shouted. “Someone who cannot tame his lion clearly still needs his diapers!”

Luhan and Sehun were dying laughing.

“You hear that, baby?” Luhan asked Sehun with a wink. “The second adult in the house is disappointed with you. How dare you not tame that lion?”

“Oh, this lion is one hundred percent untamed all the time. Ready for flesh twenty-four seven,” Sehun teased back and had the pleasure to see Luhan's ears turn red.

Huan eyed them with suspicion. “What are you two hiding?” he asked, his eyes turning into slits.

Luhan coughed and Sehun coolly replied, “Nothing that a little king has to be worried about.”

“Anyway, didn't we want to cook together?” Luhan quickly changed the topic.

“Yes, we wanted to.” Sehun jumped up, thankful for the excuse to leave before they both came under pressure for failing to offer Huan an explanation.

“And he fell asleep,” Luhan stated as he looked at his son who was soundly sleeping on his father's lap.

“As predicted,” Sehun commented and turned off the TV on which the nth episode of Huan's favorite cartoon was showing.

Luhan lifted up the boy and carried him into his room where he neatly tucked him into his bed. “He will be so mad at himself tomorrow,” he commented once he closed the door behind him.

“Do you want to wake him up again?”

“No, he needs the sleep and there will be enough fireworks that he can admire in his life,” Luhan declared and slowly walked over to Sehun to pull him into a hug. “It's still not midnight yet. What are we gonna do?”

“Oh, I have one or two ideas …” Sehun snickered and kissed Luhan seductively.

Of course, the older understood what the other was implying. “Sehun, I … I don't know … don't know how to do this …”

“But I do,” Sehun replied and looked into Luhan's eyes with longing and passion. “And if you don't like it we can stop any time.”

“Well, it's not like I don't wanna try. Mostly I'm worried that I won't live up to your standards …”

Sehun couldn't stop himself from chuckling. “I don't see a reason why you shouldn't … And if you don't then, well … I guess I’ll have to teach you.”

Luhan bit his lips. He was older than Sehun but that moment he suddenly felt much younger. “I do wanna try …”

“Then come …” Sehun pulled Luhan after him into the elder’s bedroom and locked the door to avoid any nosy kids accidentally walking in again.

He pushed Luhan against the wall and immediately claimed his lips with his own. He felt the desire and sexual frustration of over six months cooking up within him quickly and poured it all into the kiss that seemed to devour them both.

Meanwhile his fingers crawled up Luhan's shirt and unbuttoned it slowly, excited to see Luhan's delectable body underneath that was nothing but tight muscles from all the hard work on the construction sites.

Luhan's fingers played around with the hem of Sehun's pullover until the younger swiftly pulled it over his head and threw it into a corner. The older let his admiring gaze wander up and down Sehun's stunning physique.

Soon they tumbled towards the bed and Sehun landed on Luhan, using the chance to dive deeper and kissing his neck, his chest and down deeper. He opened Luhan's belt and pants and commanded the other to pull them off. Luhan complied but Sehun could still see how nervous he was. “Hey …” he husked. “No need to be so jittery. I know what I'm doing.” He nibbled on Luhan's earlobe and kissed the soft spot underneath.

Luhan let out a shaky moan as he felt Sehun fingers twirling one of his nipples. He never realized that he was so sensitive there.
After they got rid of their pants, Luhan had to face the fact that he was indeed sleeping with a man and not a woman. Of course, he had known that before. But seeing the facts personally and up-close was a whole ‘nother thing.

Sehun quickly made him forget any possible negative thoughts when he went down on him and took the tip of his cock into his mouth while his hands were moving his length up and down. Intensely, Sehun looked up to Luhan and the older felt world faltering around.

The picture of the other bobbing his head up and down on his dick was so damn magnificent and the biggest turn-on Luhan had ever experienced in his life. He was rock hard in a matter of seconds. “Fuck …” he cursed breathlessly.

With an obscene plop, Sehun released Luhan's stiff arousal and went back to his pants to get himself a little bottle of lube and a condom.

“What … am I supposed to do?” Luhan asked.

Sehun winked. “Watch me and enjoy the show.”

“Huh?” But soon Luhan understood.

Sehun was lying on the bed, his legs spread wide and three fingers buried inside him, pushing in and out at a regular pace with scissoring movements. The lube slicked up his plump ass and made it glow beneath the dim light.

Luhan had never struggled more with his restraint than he did in that moment. The way Sehun's entrance stretched and twitched around his fingers was utterly hypnotizing. He couldn't wait to get his cock in there.

Sehun's face was drowned in a pleasured bliss, eliciting small gasps and moans that shook Luhan to his core every single time. His teasing tongue, frantically wetting his lips, inviting for more kisses …

“Luhan …” Sehun breathed and the latter felt fire rising in his chest. “C'mere … I'm ready …”

Luhan crawled towards the younger and rolled over a condom. He gulped again, then he grabbed Sehun hips to position him correctly. “Fuck, you're beautiful!” he blurted out.

“You too,” Sehun chuckled. “Now get on with it!”

Luhan's spread the ass cheeks (that he decided he needed to grab much more often from now on) and slowly entered the prepared hole.

“Ahhng,” Luhan growled once he fully felt the tightness and pressing heat around him. Holy shit, this felt awesome.

Sehun sighed deeply at the feeling of being filled by the juicy, thick cock that Luhan had. “Move!” he commanded.

And Luhan did. And oh my - how he did!

Soon Sehun was moaning loudly, trying hard to suppress the sound coming out of his mouth since he didn't want to wake anyone up.
Luhan enjoyed it so much seeing his lover's face twist into the most endearing and beautiful expressions - so full of passion and pleasure.

After a while Sehun pushed himself up and tackled Luhan over just to sink down on his cock right after. That way, Luhan could thrust in much deeper and hit Sehun's sweet spot again and again. Their skin met with loud, dirty slaps.

Luhan thought he would never see something as beautiful as Sehun impaling himself on his cock. “Fuck Sehun, I love you!”

“Ah … Love you, too … Hnn …” Sehun felt heat building up in body, so he grabbed his own length and quickly rubbed it up and down, his thumb caressing over his crown. Keen yelps of pleasure escaped him when Luhan managed to hit his prostate right on.
“Luhan, I'm gonna cum …”

“Me too …” Luhan husked and pulled Sehun down to indulge him in another deep, wild kiss with their lips and teeth crashing against each other, and their tongues deliciously caressing each other.

A few harsher, irregular thrusts from Luhan and Sehun couldn't take it anymore. With hoarse growl he came all over them and Luhan followed right after with a deep moan.

And right then when they were about to catch their breaths, they heard a loud boom followed by another and another.

Sehun pulled Luhan's cock out of himself and shuddered at the loss. On wobbly knees, he crawled towards the window above Luhan's bed and pulled up the shutters.

Fireworks illuminated the night sky. The New Year had begun.

Luhan crawled next to Sehun to enjoy the view.

“Happy New Year, Sehunnie,” he muttered.

“Happy New Year, Luhan …” Sehun replied with a dreamy smile.

“Making any good resolutions?” Luhan asked jokingly when he saw Sehun's expression.

“Giving you lots of love. And you?”

Luhan stared at Sehun fondly and pulled him towards him by his chin so that he could give him a chaste kiss. “Returning this love.”

“I'd like that.”

“Me too. With you by side there would never be a day lost in this New Year and hopefully many after that.”

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author's note: Merry Chirstmas and a Happy New Year to you all. First of all I'd like to thank the prompter for the really adorable prompt. I hope I could do it justice. Secondly, thanks to everyone reading this, I hope you guys enjoyed it as well. And a super big thanks to my wonderful beta who is just such big help in my last-minute-finishing mess. Thank you. <3