So far summer update.
Since I am pretty sure someone won't read this because they don't like it, so I'll finally
- Working as a swim coach and a guard
- Don't have to work another weekend all summer (although that means crap hours)
- Got a lap top
- Found out I'm paying for all of next year minus car insurance
- Going back to Orlando August 6th
- Need a car for the fall
- I've been a bum all summer
I have many mixed emotions. Between holding on or letting go, its too hard to hang on in between and I'm tired of feeling like I'm not doing enough.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
I need some sort of closure to make it all go away but I don't want to lose everything to get it.