[Fic] Save me
Title: Save me
Chapter: 5/?
Pairing: AKame [Natsu & Kousaku ("Bandage" & "One Pound Gospel")]
Rating: NC-17-ish , though it will depend on the chapter
Genre: light angst, fluff, romance, bittersweetness...
Warning: Expect a LOT of OOC.
Summary: What does life want from a singer and a boxer? How will the two surpass the pain they have in common? Or will they? (summary sucks, I know... I'll come back later with a better one ^^)A/N: The action is set sometime after Asako left and before Natsu went solo. And Kousaku didn't ask her to marry her because she left (I hope you'll understand more later on)
A/N 2: This is my last post before going into HIATUS. It's going to be a short one. I have an exam in December and I have to study for it. I hope you'll enjoy this chapter ^^
Chapter 1: “Could you please shut up? I’m trying to have a conversation here. Thank you.”
Chapter 2: “Hey! Give it back!” he tried to reach the puff cake in Natsu’s hand. But the latter didn’t give in, also taking a bite out of it and savoring it.
Chapter 3: “Why is it that ever since I met you I have this urge to kiss you? It’s not me to do stuff like this. So… why? Why you? Why now?”
Chapter 4: Once everyone else was gone, Natsu found himself staring at Kousaku from his corner, not knowing how to react or what to say.
~*~*~
As Natsu entered the apartment, he tried to wake the other up, but had no success, so he went inside and placed him on the bed, after which he returned to close the door. He turned around to see if the younger one had woken up, but he was just lying there, curled up on the bed in fetus position. He approached him and sat on the edge of the bed, analyzing his features. Natsu reached for the blanket that was thrown somewhere around and covered the sleeping form, after which he got up and sat in an armchair somewhere near. Almost an hour later, Kousaku woke up because of thirst and saw Natsu in the armchair, doing... nothing.
“Natsu-san?” he asked, rubbing his eyes, and interrupted him from his train of thoughts.
“Hm?” he let out and looked at the other. What he saw next was the perfect image of cuteness: Kousaku's hair was a mess and he was looking at Natsu through his half-lidded eyes.
“Are you ok?”
“I should be the one asking you that, after how much you drank.” he got up and sat back on the edge of the bed. “Are you ok?”
Kousaku sat up on one elbow and looked at Natsu with his still sleepy and drunk face.
“I guess I am.” he fell back on the bed.
“Here, eat these.” Natsu chuckled and stretched for a jar on the table.
“Pickles?”
“Yeah. They'll help with the headache. Sit up and eat some.”
“But... I can't eat anymore.”
“Sure you can.” he smiled and stuffed one of the pickles in the younger one's mouth, who grimaced because of the sour taste. “I know it's sour, but you have to eat them.”
“But I'm thirsty...” the younger one whined.
“Eat those first.”
The two stood in silence, Natsu watching the other try to eat the pretty sour pickles, chuckling at every grimace that appeared on the younger one's face as he took each bite.
“No more, please.” Kousaku pleaded, hoping to stop eating them. Natsu agreed, giggling at his cuteness, and put the jar away. “Do you have something to change the taste?” he lapped his tongue in his mouth, showing his discomfort, accompanied by a small frown that completed the image.
Natsu stopped giggling and just looked at the younger one, a trace of his smile still on his face. His eyes locked with the other one's pair for a few seconds before the singer brought him close for a kiss. But pretty soon the younger one pulled away, with tears starting to form in his eyes.
“Why do I remember her every time you kiss me like this?” he didn't look at Natsu, instead concentrating on the singer's moon tattoo on his left ring finger. “We never even kissed.” his meek voice attracted the singer's attention, who leaned in to place a soft peck on his forehead.
“You were that in love with her?” he asked softly.
“Of course I was!” Kousaku almost yelled and let go of Natsu's fingers. He got up off the bed and searched for his jacket. He wanted to leave.
“Where are you going?”
“Back to the gym.” the boxer answered tearfully and saw his jacket somewhere.
Natsu stood on the bed and looked at the other disappointed. He didn't want the younger one to leave, so he instinctively got up and went to Kousaku. Gripping his wrist, he turned the younger one around and brought him into his arms. He soon felt the other snake his arms around Natsu's waist slowly, unsure if he should actually do it.
“Tell me what happened.” the singer urged him as he held him tight. “Tell me everything from the beginning.” Natsu sat him down, still holding him, and listened to his story.
Kousaku told him how he met her and that he instantly fell in love with her. He told him that from that point on, what he did was mostly for her. He felt that urge to make her happy. He confessed to Natsu that he wanted to ask her to marry him.
“She said she would come back and we would see what happens. And she did come back.”
“But?”
“I was so glad to see her getting off the train. I ran to hug her, but to my shock, there was someone accompanying her, so I stopped a few meters away, trying to be as invisible as I could. As they passed by me, I saw the ring on her left ring finger and the way they held hands and looked at each other.” he stopped for a few moments, trying to suppress the tears that wanted to leave his beautiful deep eyes. “I knew the guy... his father owns a chain of restaurants and he's the manager of the one here in Tokyo. From what I heard, it seems that business is going smoothly now.”
“If she did that, then she didn't deserve you. And it seems she also lost her so-called faith. She's a fool for losing you as well.” Natsu said softly and silence set over them.
“Thank you.”
“It's... true.” Natsu let out and felt the other tighten his grip on him as the silence grew bigger in the room. The singer felt a bit of pity towards the younger one, but in the same time he pretty much knew how he was feeling. Natsu was a bit startled when he felt the younger one's hand slowly crawling up from his chest to his shoulder blade and curling up around his neck and then pulled him closer. Natsu got the hint and also tightened his embrace. He placed a soft kiss on the other's neck and then another one above that and continued like that until he reached Kousaku's jaw and lips, finally stopping there. The two shared an innocent as well as passionate kiss before Natsu broke it for a few seconds, remembering something.
“You asked me if this was healthy for the both of us... I'd like to think it would be...” he said, looking away. When he returned his gaze to the younger one, he saw a hint of a smile tugging at his lips.
“I'd like to as well.”
There was something about that moment that made Natsu want him more than ever and he was almost sure Kousaku would let him do almost anything he wanted.
“You should leave those bittersweet feelings free of you and try something more... refreshing.”
“Like?” he placed a small kiss on Natsu's jaw and let out “You?” bluntly, but softly.
At that point Natsu's heart stopped beating for a second. The younger one voiced out what he himself didn't want to admit: that he would consider comforting him, or even...
“Why not?” he asked with a more serious expression on, eying the young man in his embrace.
“I could...” Kousaku pulled himself closer to Natsu's body, wanting to feel that comforting warmth and that unique, calming scent of his. He had to admit once again that being around Natsu gave him a feeling of safety and much needed calmness. Being around him just felt right. “I might...” he let out and curled his fingers in the singer's hair, pulling him into a kiss. Kousaku lost his balance and fell back on the bed, but didn't break the kiss, as Natsu followed him. They arranged their positions until Natsu was hovering above him. He felt the older one's hands roaming all over him gently, making his stomach churn of a feeling he has never had before, a feeling that made him scream in his mind he wanted more of that touch and those lips on his or on any part of his body.
He gasped when Natsu took his shirt off and the cold air made contact with his heated skin. He pulled Natsu down on him, this way fixing the problem, and placed his hands at the other's nape.
“Oh God, Natsu-san...”
“Lose the '-san'.” he whispered to the other as he brushed his lips over the younger one's neck.
“Natsu...”
“That's more like it.” he sucked the flesh there, marking the boxer as his own, and smiled.
“I can't...” he started panting and writhing underneath him, hoping he could finish his words before something happened. “I can't do this...”
“Do what?” Natsu let out seductively, trying to make Kousaku's belt cooperate with him and let him get to his desired object.
“I... don't know... how.” he sighed and let his head fall on the pillow.
“You'll manage.” the singer managed to sneak his hand into the boxer's pants, massaging his manhood gently over his underwear, making him moan. As soon as those pleasure sounds left his mouth, Kousaku closed it, ashamed of them, ashamed he was loud when the other was doing... something.
“Let them all come out, Kousaku-san... I want to know you're enjoying this.” Natsu let out in his still seductive voice, and it seemed to go straight under the boxer's underwear, his bulge becoming more obvious by the second.
Natsu placed a short kiss on his lips before going down to his waist, applying butterfly kisses on every patch of skin he found on his way there.
“This is... embarrassing.” Kousaku let out as he felt Natsu's lips below his bellybutton, going down. The singer returned to the younger one's lips and looked deeply into his eyes.
“No need to be embarrassed, Kousaku-san.” he smiled and kissed the other lightly, after which he resumed his action. He managed to take off the last pieces of clothing and pressed his lips at the base of the other's length, making butterflies dance around in the younger one's stomach. It was such a good feeling...
The moment Kousaku felt those plump lips touch the head of his shaft, he bucked his hips up, making more of it go into the older one's mouth. The singer eventually took it whole inside and started bobbing his head. In that moment, all sane thoughts left Kousaku, who instinctively gripped the other's hair as the heavenly warmth surrounding it created some sort of friction that seemed delicious to both of them. Natsu glanced at the other and saw a bit of redness in his cheeks, his lips slightly parted, his eyes closed and sweat covering his forehead. That was an image the singer found very arousing. He searched for one of Kousaku's hands, entwining his with the younger one's as soon as he reached it, while the other was placed on the younger one's hip, caressing it lightly. He kept bobbing his head, increasing his pace by each second, thus driving him closer to the edge.
It wasn't long before Kousaku came pretty hard in the other's mouth. Natsu swallowed the content - barely - and licked the other clean while he was coming down from his high. After he finished, Natsu climbed back up to reach the other's lips, kissing him fiercely, also allowing the younger one to taste himself.
“That was...” he opened his eyes. “That was...”
Natsu chuckled lightly and kissed him again.
“Try to get some sleep.” he let out, lying down next to the younger one, pulling him into his arms and covering him. The moment Kousaku settled into that warmth, his eyes closed almost immediately. Natsu smiled upon seeing the angelic face of the boxer and how fragile he seemed in that moment in his arms. He looked at their still entwined hands and smiled.
Is it ok if I like him? Natsu removed some hair strands out of the other's face. I mean...look at him... he's so... He couldn't find the right words to describe the young man that was peacefully lying in his arms.
He felt happy. For some extra-terrestrial, metaphysical reason, Natsu felt happy when he was near the lively boxer. Was it because he was totally different from Asako?
He soon fell asleep while watching the other and playing with his soft hair, something he found relaxing and something that made him forget about her, even for a few minutes.
~*~*~
Natsu was the first one to wake up. He got out of bed as gently as he could, not wanting to wake the other up and pulled up a chair close to the bed, turning it around and sitting on it. He drew out a cigarette and lit it, then settled his head on his folded arm on the back of the chair. He just stared at the other, thinking diverse stuff, mostly including the younger one, and took a drag out of the cigarette from time to time. After he finished smoking, he put the chair away and knelt on the floor, put his arms on the bed and his head on them and stared at the younger one some more.
Soon enough, Kousaku started to slowly wake up: at first he half opened his eyes and looked at Natsu sleepily, then closed them back; less than a minute later he opened just one eye and looked at him and only then did he realize he was being watched. His eyes widened as he jumped up on the bed; he was scared by Natsu who was sitting so close to him. The singer fell back, surprised at the younger one's reaction and chuckled as he ran his eyes from Kousaku's head down to his...
The younger one followed the singer's gaze as it wandered down to his middle area and saw how naked he was. Kousaku pulled the quilt over himself and crawled towards the window to be as far away as he could from the singer.
“W-what happened?” he asked in an unsure tone. “Why am I naked?”
“You don't remember anything?” the singer asked as he got up and sat on the bed. As he noticed the younger one shaking his head, he chuckled lightly. “Let's just say you seemed to enjoy yourself.” he smirked and gave him his underwear.
Kousaku felt his cheeks burn. Enjoyed himself? The last thing he remembered was that he got drunk and then Natsu took him.... home?
“You really can't remember?” the singer looked at him a bit worried.
“N-no.”
“I think you really drank too much.” he chuckled again.
“Tell me what happened last night.” Kousaku let out, even if he wasn't sure he wanted to know.
“Well...”
“I know at some point it was only the two of us left at the table.” he frowned slightly.
“Yeah. And then when we left, I wanted to take you back to the gym, but you insisted to see where I live. You fell asleep sometime on our way here and I had to carry you. When we arrived here, I placed you on the bed and let you sleep. But some time later, maybe an hour, you woke up and things got... interesting.” he finished with a small, guilty smile.
“Interesting? In what way?” Kousaku frowned a bit more.
Natsu thought it was better to actually show him than to tell him. So he crawled on the bed and as he got closer to the younger one, he stopped and sat up on his knees, looking at him with a soft smile.
“I think it's better to show you than to tell you.” he let out with a smirk as he leaned in and captured the other's lips. The boxer soon lost himself in it, but as he felt Natsu's hand going south, he pulled away and stopped his hand.
“W-what are you doing?” he looked at Natsu with a shocked expression while he pushed his hand away.
“Why do you think you're naked, Kousaku-san?” the singer asked a very good question which the boxer seemed to have a hard time finding an answer to. He was brought out of his thoughts by Natsu who sat beside him.
“Don't you have rehearsals for tonight?” he decided to change the subject, being more than sure he didn't want to know the reason he was naked.
“I think I do.” the singer shrugged and took his pack of cigarettes out of his pocket and lit one up.
“Smoking's bad for you.” Kousaku said as he took the cigarette out of the singer's mouth.
“It's not that strong.” he agitated himself to get it back.
“Then it's bad for me.” the younger one put it out and threw it in the near-by ashtray.
“Sneaky, eh?” the only answer he got was a shrug from the other one.
They spent some time in silence, each busy with his own thoughts, when Kousaku took Natsu's left hand and brought it closer to him, analyzing the small crescent-shaped tattoo.
“Does this have any significance?”
“It does. But I'm not telling you.” he smiled weakly. “At least not now.”
“But I want to know...” he said under his breath and pouted.
Natsu saw how worked up he was about the tattoo, turning that finger in every direction, and he found the image in front of him very cute. With his other hand, he turned the other's face gently towards him.
“Is there something on my face?” Kousaku asked innocently after a few moments in which Natsu stared at him.
“No.” Natsu answered and placed a gentle kiss on the younger one's lips.
“Why did you do that?”
“Because... well, just because.” he smiled mildly.
“Because you felt like it?” Kousaku chuckled lightly and glanced at Natsu. He felt all giddy seeing his face in that very moment that he let go of the finger and took the whole hand and entwined it with his as he kept Natsu's gaze.
Something's changed in him. “You're not what you seem to be, Natsu-san.”
“W-what do you mean?” the younger one's words put him off a bit.
“After the night I met you.... the next day... you were all grumpy and arrogant and all. But I see you're not like that. At all.” he ended his small argument with a smile.
For the first time in his life, Natsu could feel his cheeks burn. He never imagined someone would see him that way.
“I... Thank you.” he looked away.
“Uun.” he let out and cuddled to his chest. Natsu's heart skipped a beat when he did that and the singer panicked a bit, not knowing what the feeling was. “My head hurts.” he muttered and heard the other chuckle.
“They told you not to drink so much.” he said softly into his ear, kissing Kousaku's temple lightly.
“They did?” he chuckled nervously. But then his face turned serious. “I... I should get going.” he sat up, but was pulled back again by the other.
“I already told them you're with me and you're safe.”
“But I have training-”
“Not today you don't.”
“What do you mean?” he sat up once again and looked confused at singer who had a pleased look on his face.
“I... asked them to let you spend the day with me.” he looked elsewhere, waiting for a reaction, bad or good.
“You did WHAT? Why?” he couldn't believe Natsu would go to such extent as to ask his boss to let him stay with him that day. But he was also awed, since few people could convince Mukoda-san to do something she normally wouldn't do.
“Because... just because.” he grinned. He wasn't going to tell him his real reason.
“Fine then.” he sat up. “What's the next thing on your agenda?” he grinned at Natsu.
“Well, I have rehearsals a bit later and.... oh, right, I have to get my car back.”
“Where did you leave it?”
“In front of the boxing center.”
“Let's jog there.” he grinned and got off the bed in search for his clothes.
“Jog?” his eyes widened. “Not again.”
“Don't whine.” he chuckled and made Natsu get up. “I was just teasing you. “And since it was because of you that I'm naked, you have the honor of dressing me.” he let out childishly as he handed Natsu his clothes.
Kousaku was having fun seeing Natsu struggle to dress him; he wasn't exactly cooperative. The singer managed to put his shirt on, but the worse part was just about to begin: the pants. Kousaku wouldn't lift his legs to let himself get dressed, no matter what Natsu did. In the end, the singer thought of something: he put his arms around the younger one's waist and leaned in to kiss him; he then pushed the other until they fell on the bed.
“If you won't let me finish dressing you, I'll have to tie you to the bed or anywhere else I can and put your pants on.” he whispered seductively in Kousaku's ear.
“And do what to me?” the younger one seemed to provoke the singer.
“I'm not sure you want to find that out.” Natsu nibbled on the other's lower lip a bit, after which he placed butterfly kisses down to his neck, where he stopped for a while, licking and biting the area gently until he was satisfied with the mark he left.
“Ungh... Natsu-san, please... stop...”
“Get dressed or I won't. You're too big a temptation with your clothes on, let alone without them.” the husky voice he had was turning Kousaku on, even if he didn't want to admit it even to himself. Kousaku let out an almost inaudible 'hai' and tried to get up from underneath Natsu. The latter placed another small kiss on his lips and got up. Kousaku finally got dressed and jumped up off the bed as he finished. Natsu approached him as he was bent over, tying his shoes, making him get up and placing a daring kiss on the younger one's lips.
“I'm sorry, but I just can't keep my hands to myself when you're around me.” he let out and faintly smiled.
“I don't mind at all.” Kousaku replied and circled his arms around Natsu's neck, pulling him into a loose hug. The singer placed his arms on the younger one's waist and his face in the crook of the other's neck, and placed a soft kiss on the mark he left the previous night.
“I... w-want to... b-be with you, Kousaku-san.” Natsu stuttered as said it out of the blue, still holding the other, as he didn't want him to see his burning face - he sure felt it that way.
The boxer didn't say a word; he didn't know what to say.
“I know this is sudden... just... shake your head if you don't want to. I understand if you don't and I won't mind.”
“I...” he was quiet for a few moments. “I'll think about it.”
“Thank you.” Natsu let out and smiled vaguely, after which he let go of the younger one and placed a soft kiss on his forehead.
Kousaku closed his eyes for a second when he felt the singer's lips; he could feel the warmth in that gesture, the desire. But he still couldn't let go of her memory, of... her, even though he saw with his own eyes how happy she was with that guy.
“Try to stop thinking about her.” Natsu let out softly and looked into his eyes.
“I wasn't-” the singer chuckled when he saw how fast his face turned red. “How did you...”
“Intuition.”
“Eh?”
“You always have that lost puppy look every time you think or talk about her.” he shrugged.
“I-”
“Let's go. We have a long day ahead of us.” Natsu caressed his cheek and smiled, after which he grabbed his hand and led them out of the apartment.
Was it that obvious? Kousaku asked himself as he followed the singer, glancing at him a few times.
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Note: Ok, maybe you read at the begining of the chapter, in the A/N, that I'll be on a small hiatus. I need some time to deal with RL >.< I promise to be back after my exam in December. I won't stop writing, which I'll do slowly, bit by bit ^^. I'll be around, though, so if you guys want to poke me, I'll be sure to answer ^^
Note2: No more spots for hinatah ... she says she doesn't want one XD So, this is for you, love <3 THANK YOU!