flatlined.
YUCK.
I don't hate school. I love learning stuff. I just wish I was better at storing information than the current me. I am all like "THAT IS REALLY NEAT" and then I leave lecture and go "wait, how do i do that again?"
Good thing all my classes are lecture.
I absolutely LOVE econ though. Sucking at calculus.. Rocking Physics and Computer Programming is like.. my second hobbie. lol.
I am thinking about dropping calc. In which... I will have to ... rethink my passion for engineering.. cuz you know. Math and engineering sorta go hand in hand. I MIGHT go into Chemical engineering though, and I don't know what the math req. is for that.
Life is just confusing right now.
Too much shit going on I think.
I am getting attention from all the wrong people. Well.. not all the wrong people but. Yeah.
And apparently this apathy thing is growing on me. Like when I decided this morning that I could skip class and fuck around. Yeah. Not so good.
I at least went to the tutor thing. Had to teach physics. Fuck that....
Visiting Ashleigh and eating in solitude MAY have been my favorite parts of the day today.
Eating alone has ups and downs.
You get to observe people, but I also eat too fast when I eat alone- which ultimately is bad for you.
It's a habit though, I can't help it. Some people bite their nails, I eat fast.
only like.. 40 pages left for the Wallflower book.
Waiting for the fucking bus 37 was pretty much the lowest point of the day I guess.
I stood at the bus stop for like.. 35 minutes.
But at least I met some strangers (without introduction) and got to sorta make friends. Plus i read more so that was fine.
Got back to the dorm 45 minutes later-er than I planned.. which threw me off.
Then I did laundry. Now. Doing laundry wouldn't be such a big deal except for the fact that I have a phys exam AND a calc exam tomorrow.
I mean.. if that isn't a day of hell, I am not sure what is.
But I was out of socks so I HAD to do it. I mean.. I can't just go a day without socks you know? I mean.. you can wear a shirt, or pants more than once or w/e, but with socks? Not allowed.
So as pessimistic as this entry sounds, I am pretty sure this week will be a week where I'll turn things around. I fucked around too much at the beginning of the semester. I am getting my shit together, getting my ass in gear. Yeah. Glad that I got that out there.
I don't have the time to fuck around anymore. Plus I have to learn to balance things out.
With the CDCA meeting, Formula Racer building and anti-coke champaigning, PRISMing, schooling and of course having fun. I better get my shit together.
I am doing it. I am doing it.
Off I go to do some calcness.
Hooray for that.
I don't hate school. I love learning stuff. I just wish I was better at storing information than the current me. I am all like "THAT IS REALLY NEAT" and then I leave lecture and go "wait, how do i do that again?"
Good thing all my classes are lecture.
I absolutely LOVE econ though. Sucking at calculus.. Rocking Physics and Computer Programming is like.. my second hobbie. lol.
I am thinking about dropping calc. In which... I will have to ... rethink my passion for engineering.. cuz you know. Math and engineering sorta go hand in hand. I MIGHT go into Chemical engineering though, and I don't know what the math req. is for that.
Life is just confusing right now.
Too much shit going on I think.
I am getting attention from all the wrong people. Well.. not all the wrong people but. Yeah.
And apparently this apathy thing is growing on me. Like when I decided this morning that I could skip class and fuck around. Yeah. Not so good.
I at least went to the tutor thing. Had to teach physics. Fuck that....
Visiting Ashleigh and eating in solitude MAY have been my favorite parts of the day today.
Eating alone has ups and downs.
You get to observe people, but I also eat too fast when I eat alone- which ultimately is bad for you.
It's a habit though, I can't help it. Some people bite their nails, I eat fast.
only like.. 40 pages left for the Wallflower book.
Waiting for the fucking bus 37 was pretty much the lowest point of the day I guess.
I stood at the bus stop for like.. 35 minutes.
But at least I met some strangers (without introduction) and got to sorta make friends. Plus i read more so that was fine.
Got back to the dorm 45 minutes later-er than I planned.. which threw me off.
Then I did laundry. Now. Doing laundry wouldn't be such a big deal except for the fact that I have a phys exam AND a calc exam tomorrow.
I mean.. if that isn't a day of hell, I am not sure what is.
But I was out of socks so I HAD to do it. I mean.. I can't just go a day without socks you know? I mean.. you can wear a shirt, or pants more than once or w/e, but with socks? Not allowed.
So as pessimistic as this entry sounds, I am pretty sure this week will be a week where I'll turn things around. I fucked around too much at the beginning of the semester. I am getting my shit together, getting my ass in gear. Yeah. Glad that I got that out there.
I don't have the time to fuck around anymore. Plus I have to learn to balance things out.
With the CDCA meeting, Formula Racer building and anti-coke champaigning, PRISMing, schooling and of course having fun. I better get my shit together.
I am doing it. I am doing it.
Off I go to do some calcness.
Hooray for that.