Coming to a close
Well the sucky thing about coming home for the weekend is that its over before you know it. I have a 7:10pm bus to catch back to Oneonta and that'll be it, but not before I go to the mall to grab a few things. This weekend was pretty fun and the weather back home is just amazing. I mean at Oneonta it was 60 on Friday, but here its like 70...wow I love this weather. So ok the reason for all my madness of coming down here. Well like after the Virgina Tech stuff it kinda spooked me yknow shooting at a college kinda hits home. It really sucks that it takes things like that to show that you aren't comepletely safe anywhere because it only takes one nut job to ruin the whole party. It got me thinking that if something horrible did happen to me or Ali I didn't want the last memory of her to be her in a meltdown. So I wanted to see her again, but I knew that I had a slim chance because she was going to West Point with Jan, but it was worth a shot. O yeah I also got to ride the bus with Lisa who was going home too so I figured that would be a great time to get to know her more.
Friday all I had was a US history test that I might have gotten a shitty grade b/c I ran out of time and couldnt write a second essay. Left at 2:30pm and met up wtih Lisa and then we took the bus to k-town. We talked about a bunch of random junk on the bus and at some point we realized that we took the wrong bus lol. We were planning on going on the bus that went to just the colleges and then to k-town. There was another bus that made all these stupid stops so it would take 1/2 hr longer to get home. Yeah we were pissed lol. To kill time I guess this asian kid form SUNY Delhi started to talk to us and he was going to the city. The bus ride was like 2 hrs long, but certainly didn't feel like 2 hrs...altho the consistant uninteresting scenery probably contributed to that. So we got to Kingston at like 5:20pm and i said my goodbyes to Lisa and other kid. I looked for Steve's car since that what Mikey said who was going to pick me up. Nope not there so I called him and he said that Bryan was going to get me and that he was on his way so I chilled for a bit at the bus station. After that I get a text from Ali just wanting to say hi and that she was already on her way to West Point. Yep so that plan was shot, but like I said I kind didn't think I would have a chance to see her anyway. I texted her back saying that I was back home and then we just went back and forth on that for a good amount of time. It basically ended with me telling her that there is a slim chance that she would see me on Sunday, but as before I kinda doubt I'll see her today.
Bryan came at like 6pm and took me back to Mikey's house and we chilled there until 7pm and then we went to the mall. At the mall I went into EB to chill with Brittney and get a Nintendo DS lol...yep I got a black one and I also got Tekken Advance for it. I think I have every Tekken out so far....damnit no I don't stupid Tekken 5 DR for PS3 x.x Anyway I went into the arcade and play my one insignificant game of In the Groove 2 and talked to Mike who I was suprised to be back home. It was just about closing time so I went back to the sunglass booth to chill with Mikey and others. We decided to go the BK Lounge for dinner and there was some kind of "car show" like outside in the parking lot, but idk those cars were meh at best. Chilled there for a bit and then went back to Mikey's where apperently Tim is trying to get good at Halo 2 now...I guess he'll be at Mikey's more now. That was about it for Friday.
Saturday morning I woke up at around 10am which is usually when I wake up for school...well more like 9am. I watched Smoking Aces and it was ok I guess. The storyline was hard to get into, but acting was decent. Jeremy Piven...well not so much. Ryan Reynolds a little better, I didn't think he would do well in a serious role but he does so good for him. Conrad came at like 12pm and I thought that he came unannonced...he called at 7am -.-; So he played Halo 2, got so pissed that he slammed the controller on the table and broke the bottom of the controller x.x Yeah taking the game little too serious much? At like 4pmish Mikey, Steve, Conrad, Lindsey, and I decided to get some pizza and go down to the park to throw some frisbee. Went down to 4 seasons pizza and got shitty serivce and then went to the park and threw a little frisbee. It was awsome to get out there in the nice weather I mean if I wasnt home I'd probably be playing street hockey up at Oneonta. Got done there at like 5:30pm and we had to go to Wal Mart so Conrad could get a new controller. Sitting in the back of Steve's Pulsar and looking at the view moving fast reminded me of how awsome it is to drive....and then it reminded me of how badly I want a Honda 5 gen Prelude :( Just another thing that I'll never have I guess lol. Anyway got the Wal mart and the best part was when we were in the toys section I dropped a elmo couch thingy that vibrated on Mikey and then there was a sword fight and then there was a bunch of silly string and then Mikey got all artistic with a Yankee Doodle cop out (drawing thing that uses magnetic stuff) and showed a penis, a naked chick, and the middle finger to the security cam lol.
Went back to Mikey's and Will and Sean were there so everyone played Halo 2. I got bored so I took a walk since it was sunset and I wanted to see the awsome sunset and the stars.
It actually took me like 20 min to walk all the way down to Port Ewen and then of course another 20 min to walk back to Mikey's. A little more Halo 2 and then we went bowling. Bryan had set Mikey up with a blind date and well I'll tell you right now it didn't work out...at all. Bowled a few games and I actually got 2 strikes in a row using Sissy's ball. That ball is redicuously light so I just put an insane amount of power on it and it just crushed the pins. Although the next game I got no love from the ball and had like 1 pin frames for like the whole game. So after bowling everyone went back to Mikey's and fuck I was tired. I had a very productive day and I wanted to sleep, but yknow the couch was occupied and Sissy wanted her privacy so I fell asleep sitting up on the couch then surrendered and fell asleep on Mikey's bed. I woke up at like 3am just when everyone was leaving so I got the couch back and just crashed.
Here I am now typing this. I'm going to watch the Devils game, go to the mall, get some grub and back to college I go for another 3 weeks...wow only 3 weeks to go. Sissy thought that it was kinda crazy that I was coming back for something stupid like to see Ali and wanted to tell her that since my heart is in control of course it'll do nothing logical. That is what the brain is for. Like in my head I know that Ali and I at this point will not happen, but my heart wants to take a shot at it. I mean I've shown that girl everything about me in the 6yrs the good and the bad, but never the heart. Even when she liked me I had my shields on auto pilot and blew it. Now that I'm so close to burying those feelings my heart is wanting its chance, but as you know when you put your heart out there and you fail, its gonna suck a lot no matter what. I am just trying to keep it caged until I have atleast some chance rather than no chance at all which is now. I donno I guess if you've locked your heart up like you have it makes no sense at all...or maybe there are different rules for girls to get guys, but I'm just going by how I live life and thats give it everything you have so that way you have no regrets...winning is just an added bonus....but what do I know right?
Ok I gotta end this, I mean this is insanely long lol. 1 more comp art project, 1 more history test, 1 more astronomy test, and a few more drawings to do until my Spring semester is over. I'll cya later and get outside, its fucking awsome out.
- Jon 45
Nami Tamaki - Cross Season (Its new!)
After class was dismissed, we'd stand in the silhouette of the setting sun
Instead of saying "bye", we'd say "see you later"
To walk the road of tomorrow's graduation
means to change my habbit of looking back
My weariness and pain
begin to know another freedom
See you in the cross again; in the blue season
Until then, the same old scenery and the same old time will continue to grow
Our dreams will shine strongly, even in our eyes
In my heart I will whisper to myself never to forget you all
It'll never matter how far seperate we become because we will always be right here
I remember you sneaking candy through the classroom window and me so shyly unwrapping and eating it
There's no answer for my being lost
I'm beginning to know a very painful pain
I want to smile in your season
Even though our cross season has already passed
When the pathes we sought for is sent to us
let's walk together hand in hand feeling the warmth of our dreams
Because even in a time where we can't return we'll learn to "like it"
See you in the cross again; in the moving seasons
When everything is settled, lost words will surely be answered to
I faced the past with a soft smile on my face and swore that these changing times will remain in my heart
Friday all I had was a US history test that I might have gotten a shitty grade b/c I ran out of time and couldnt write a second essay. Left at 2:30pm and met up wtih Lisa and then we took the bus to k-town. We talked about a bunch of random junk on the bus and at some point we realized that we took the wrong bus lol. We were planning on going on the bus that went to just the colleges and then to k-town. There was another bus that made all these stupid stops so it would take 1/2 hr longer to get home. Yeah we were pissed lol. To kill time I guess this asian kid form SUNY Delhi started to talk to us and he was going to the city. The bus ride was like 2 hrs long, but certainly didn't feel like 2 hrs...altho the consistant uninteresting scenery probably contributed to that. So we got to Kingston at like 5:20pm and i said my goodbyes to Lisa and other kid. I looked for Steve's car since that what Mikey said who was going to pick me up. Nope not there so I called him and he said that Bryan was going to get me and that he was on his way so I chilled for a bit at the bus station. After that I get a text from Ali just wanting to say hi and that she was already on her way to West Point. Yep so that plan was shot, but like I said I kind didn't think I would have a chance to see her anyway. I texted her back saying that I was back home and then we just went back and forth on that for a good amount of time. It basically ended with me telling her that there is a slim chance that she would see me on Sunday, but as before I kinda doubt I'll see her today.
Bryan came at like 6pm and took me back to Mikey's house and we chilled there until 7pm and then we went to the mall. At the mall I went into EB to chill with Brittney and get a Nintendo DS lol...yep I got a black one and I also got Tekken Advance for it. I think I have every Tekken out so far....damnit no I don't stupid Tekken 5 DR for PS3 x.x Anyway I went into the arcade and play my one insignificant game of In the Groove 2 and talked to Mike who I was suprised to be back home. It was just about closing time so I went back to the sunglass booth to chill with Mikey and others. We decided to go the BK Lounge for dinner and there was some kind of "car show" like outside in the parking lot, but idk those cars were meh at best. Chilled there for a bit and then went back to Mikey's where apperently Tim is trying to get good at Halo 2 now...I guess he'll be at Mikey's more now. That was about it for Friday.
Saturday morning I woke up at around 10am which is usually when I wake up for school...well more like 9am. I watched Smoking Aces and it was ok I guess. The storyline was hard to get into, but acting was decent. Jeremy Piven...well not so much. Ryan Reynolds a little better, I didn't think he would do well in a serious role but he does so good for him. Conrad came at like 12pm and I thought that he came unannonced...he called at 7am -.-; So he played Halo 2, got so pissed that he slammed the controller on the table and broke the bottom of the controller x.x Yeah taking the game little too serious much? At like 4pmish Mikey, Steve, Conrad, Lindsey, and I decided to get some pizza and go down to the park to throw some frisbee. Went down to 4 seasons pizza and got shitty serivce and then went to the park and threw a little frisbee. It was awsome to get out there in the nice weather I mean if I wasnt home I'd probably be playing street hockey up at Oneonta. Got done there at like 5:30pm and we had to go to Wal Mart so Conrad could get a new controller. Sitting in the back of Steve's Pulsar and looking at the view moving fast reminded me of how awsome it is to drive....and then it reminded me of how badly I want a Honda 5 gen Prelude :( Just another thing that I'll never have I guess lol. Anyway got the Wal mart and the best part was when we were in the toys section I dropped a elmo couch thingy that vibrated on Mikey and then there was a sword fight and then there was a bunch of silly string and then Mikey got all artistic with a Yankee Doodle cop out (drawing thing that uses magnetic stuff) and showed a penis, a naked chick, and the middle finger to the security cam lol.
Went back to Mikey's and Will and Sean were there so everyone played Halo 2. I got bored so I took a walk since it was sunset and I wanted to see the awsome sunset and the stars.
It actually took me like 20 min to walk all the way down to Port Ewen and then of course another 20 min to walk back to Mikey's. A little more Halo 2 and then we went bowling. Bryan had set Mikey up with a blind date and well I'll tell you right now it didn't work out...at all. Bowled a few games and I actually got 2 strikes in a row using Sissy's ball. That ball is redicuously light so I just put an insane amount of power on it and it just crushed the pins. Although the next game I got no love from the ball and had like 1 pin frames for like the whole game. So after bowling everyone went back to Mikey's and fuck I was tired. I had a very productive day and I wanted to sleep, but yknow the couch was occupied and Sissy wanted her privacy so I fell asleep sitting up on the couch then surrendered and fell asleep on Mikey's bed. I woke up at like 3am just when everyone was leaving so I got the couch back and just crashed.
Here I am now typing this. I'm going to watch the Devils game, go to the mall, get some grub and back to college I go for another 3 weeks...wow only 3 weeks to go. Sissy thought that it was kinda crazy that I was coming back for something stupid like to see Ali and wanted to tell her that since my heart is in control of course it'll do nothing logical. That is what the brain is for. Like in my head I know that Ali and I at this point will not happen, but my heart wants to take a shot at it. I mean I've shown that girl everything about me in the 6yrs the good and the bad, but never the heart. Even when she liked me I had my shields on auto pilot and blew it. Now that I'm so close to burying those feelings my heart is wanting its chance, but as you know when you put your heart out there and you fail, its gonna suck a lot no matter what. I am just trying to keep it caged until I have atleast some chance rather than no chance at all which is now. I donno I guess if you've locked your heart up like you have it makes no sense at all...or maybe there are different rules for girls to get guys, but I'm just going by how I live life and thats give it everything you have so that way you have no regrets...winning is just an added bonus....but what do I know right?
Ok I gotta end this, I mean this is insanely long lol. 1 more comp art project, 1 more history test, 1 more astronomy test, and a few more drawings to do until my Spring semester is over. I'll cya later and get outside, its fucking awsome out.
- Jon 45
Nami Tamaki - Cross Season (Its new!)
After class was dismissed, we'd stand in the silhouette of the setting sun
Instead of saying "bye", we'd say "see you later"
To walk the road of tomorrow's graduation
means to change my habbit of looking back
My weariness and pain
begin to know another freedom
See you in the cross again; in the blue season
Until then, the same old scenery and the same old time will continue to grow
Our dreams will shine strongly, even in our eyes
In my heart I will whisper to myself never to forget you all
It'll never matter how far seperate we become because we will always be right here
I remember you sneaking candy through the classroom window and me so shyly unwrapping and eating it
There's no answer for my being lost
I'm beginning to know a very painful pain
I want to smile in your season
Even though our cross season has already passed
When the pathes we sought for is sent to us
let's walk together hand in hand feeling the warmth of our dreams
Because even in a time where we can't return we'll learn to "like it"
See you in the cross again; in the moving seasons
When everything is settled, lost words will surely be answered to
I faced the past with a soft smile on my face and swore that these changing times will remain in my heart