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Yeah I don't know it's late I just woke up and I'm bored out of my mind. I just came up here because I don't know. I fucking hate what I do to myself and to others. Seriously I fuck up the way people are happy and I just am not happy ever. Rarely happy if ever. It's like I'm the only one that can really understand what I feel and I don't even know what other people think of me anymore. I want to know what people think of me. Seriously one day everyone that reads this. Just fucking expolde on me. Yell at me all you want. I want to here it all. I want to know absolutely everything. Nothing held back Just fucking expolde. I really want to know everything it'll be fun and it'll make me feel better.
I hate being out of place. Seriously I don't feel like anyone tries to understand. I fucking hate the way I am in school and out. I hsve to change who I am just for people to not bug mw. I like being a loner. I like just being a part of my own self. It's to fucking hard for people to just understand that I am not really a social person. I am just a fucker who likes to be alone because only one person really makes me happy and makes me laugh. I just kind of act like I should just fit in. Fuck fitting in. No one in Palatine even knows shit about me. I think like 3 people really know who I am and one ONE goes to Palatine. I don't even take to him about important things in school. I also hate the fact that rumors fucking start. DON'T FUCKING SAY SHIT ABOUT SOMEONE UNLESS YOU REALLY KNOW WHAT YOU'RE FUCKING SAYING. IT'S SO FUCKING RETARDED. It's not that hard to not start talking about other people. People have the right to be an indiviual. Life is about being who you are. "Stay true to yourself no matter the consequnes." Killswitch Engage understands it. It makes me feel good whenever I listen to it. I actuallly see that there are good people in the world. It's so hard to find people who will really stand up for who they are. It's not that hard to stand up for yourself. Fight for who you are. Fight for what you want. Fight for life. It's not that hard to be a fighter. Even if you're a "lover not a fighter" You have to fight to be that. Don't ever take life for granted. Don't take what you have in life for granted. People come into your life for a reason. Embrace them and never let them go. If you love someone then they should know it. It's not right to have to hide your feelings. Never regert actions you do unless you actually know that you've done wrong and that you truely feel bad about. Life is a gift and a drug at the same time. You have to understand life is something very percious and small. It's a complete and utter Anarchy. That's all I have to say tonight I'm tired, depressed, and somewhat pissed.
Love
Jim
I hate being out of place. Seriously I don't feel like anyone tries to understand. I fucking hate the way I am in school and out. I hsve to change who I am just for people to not bug mw. I like being a loner. I like just being a part of my own self. It's to fucking hard for people to just understand that I am not really a social person. I am just a fucker who likes to be alone because only one person really makes me happy and makes me laugh. I just kind of act like I should just fit in. Fuck fitting in. No one in Palatine even knows shit about me. I think like 3 people really know who I am and one ONE goes to Palatine. I don't even take to him about important things in school. I also hate the fact that rumors fucking start. DON'T FUCKING SAY SHIT ABOUT SOMEONE UNLESS YOU REALLY KNOW WHAT YOU'RE FUCKING SAYING. IT'S SO FUCKING RETARDED. It's not that hard to not start talking about other people. People have the right to be an indiviual. Life is about being who you are. "Stay true to yourself no matter the consequnes." Killswitch Engage understands it. It makes me feel good whenever I listen to it. I actuallly see that there are good people in the world. It's so hard to find people who will really stand up for who they are. It's not that hard to stand up for yourself. Fight for who you are. Fight for what you want. Fight for life. It's not that hard to be a fighter. Even if you're a "lover not a fighter" You have to fight to be that. Don't ever take life for granted. Don't take what you have in life for granted. People come into your life for a reason. Embrace them and never let them go. If you love someone then they should know it. It's not right to have to hide your feelings. Never regert actions you do unless you actually know that you've done wrong and that you truely feel bad about. Life is a gift and a drug at the same time. You have to understand life is something very percious and small. It's a complete and utter Anarchy. That's all I have to say tonight I'm tired, depressed, and somewhat pissed.
Love
Jim