"If women ruled musical..."
NOT IN A GOOD MOOD AT ALL. i dont understand why it is my job to go get a set piece for the show. jerilynn said i have to wake up to be in greece by 8:30 in the morning to get some truck or something. i told her i didnt want to exspecially if i don't have to be at practice tomorrow....then she flipped out and said "well i guess we'll have to think of something else then b/c im not going alone." why is it my responsibility? why am i the only person who can do it? shouldnt...i dont know...the DIRECTOR be the one? i really dont care. im sick of doing so much for them and cooporating so much and helping out and being their middle man with the cast and them not recognizing it at all. i did one thing wrong and silly today in rehearsal. ONE THING IN THE WHOLE 5 MONTH PROCESS and that was the focus for the "talk" after practice....saying im not focused. whatever cuz im pretty sure alls they do is sit in their effing chairs while eating their effing Bill Grays while blameing their enormous amounts of ignorance on mr stevens. ::Whew:: that felt good. so i guess i dont have to be at practice tomorrow cuz she said all cowboys will be in the blackbox and all girls in the dance studio at 11...so iasked jerilynn if i had to go and she said that she didnt know....well if the "assistant director" doesnt know then how the eff am I?!?! Why are they so stupid?! ugh i swear that they have the hardest time solving the most easiest things...i want tocut myself and bleed out on stage whenever jerilynn or ms white say they think its bad or they have a better idea....WHAT THE HELL IS MY LIFE?!?!?! I think i need to go talk myself down before i end up buying a hamster just so i could snap its neck...For now-
Jimmy :)
Jimmy :)