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why do things always go wrong?
my mom insist on putting my little brother down because he forgot to bring his study guide home. she fucking yelled at him and said he's an idiot. i can't fucking stand it, i would her rather yell at me, at least i can take it. i know my brother can forget things at times but its not his fucking fault, why can't she just realize he has a problem. does she not notice he has to take medicine to concentrate. and i'm sorry mom its not fucking our fault that you have to pay bills,maybe if you didn't waste your life working at Shaw's it would be easier. and hearing that we have no money all the time doesn't help. the only thing worse than that ir realizing i can't do anything about it. the one thing this has taught me is to do the best i can and to never settle, always reach for better i do everything i can for this fucking family and i get nothing. and when i say that i don't mean that i want a present or anything i just want a thank you, at least give me that. now i've been dealing with this crap all my life and i truly think it will make me stronger, but sometimes you just want to feel like your wanted and right now i really don't. so all i know is that once i get the fuck out of here i'm never coming back. and i just want to say to all my friends, your the only reason i even try anymore, and thank you for always being there. alright i just needed to get that out.
peace.
my mom insist on putting my little brother down because he forgot to bring his study guide home. she fucking yelled at him and said he's an idiot. i can't fucking stand it, i would her rather yell at me, at least i can take it. i know my brother can forget things at times but its not his fucking fault, why can't she just realize he has a problem. does she not notice he has to take medicine to concentrate. and i'm sorry mom its not fucking our fault that you have to pay bills,maybe if you didn't waste your life working at Shaw's it would be easier. and hearing that we have no money all the time doesn't help. the only thing worse than that ir realizing i can't do anything about it. the one thing this has taught me is to do the best i can and to never settle, always reach for better i do everything i can for this fucking family and i get nothing. and when i say that i don't mean that i want a present or anything i just want a thank you, at least give me that. now i've been dealing with this crap all my life and i truly think it will make me stronger, but sometimes you just want to feel like your wanted and right now i really don't. so all i know is that once i get the fuck out of here i'm never coming back. and i just want to say to all my friends, your the only reason i even try anymore, and thank you for always being there. alright i just needed to get that out.
peace.