I'm going straight ahead with the scar
These moments of posting happen rarely lately. I was going to spend time studying tonight. I did for a bit, but then I realized how lonely it was on Friday night, especially before you would have been leaving for Japan tomorrow and done with this damned country.
I never thought I'd get to this point about being here. You know, I just left off where I had been before. I never know best.
I know why I came back. I needed my freedom again. I needed to feel like my life was in my control. Then we come to UPS. I should never trust anything named after a sub-par delivery service. I should have learned that from Futurama by now.
I keep blaming myself. I know that I have to. If this had gone better, I'd have my passport back now and be on my way. But, because of me it took longer. Granted, I never would not have gone to Japan two weeks ago, but I would also not be in this position.
How many times can I land dream interviews and have to turn them down??
I don't think fate is that friendly.
FUCK, I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS IS OVER FOR ME! This is my will of fire. I will study. I will learn. And I will make it to a beautiful place in Japan, and kami willing, I will make it to Fukuoka one day.
That is truly the only place I find peace for my restless soul. I will get that back! I will!!
I never thought I'd get to this point about being here. You know, I just left off where I had been before. I never know best.
I know why I came back. I needed my freedom again. I needed to feel like my life was in my control. Then we come to UPS. I should never trust anything named after a sub-par delivery service. I should have learned that from Futurama by now.
I keep blaming myself. I know that I have to. If this had gone better, I'd have my passport back now and be on my way. But, because of me it took longer. Granted, I never would not have gone to Japan two weeks ago, but I would also not be in this position.
How many times can I land dream interviews and have to turn them down??
I don't think fate is that friendly.
FUCK, I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS IS OVER FOR ME! This is my will of fire. I will study. I will learn. And I will make it to a beautiful place in Japan, and kami willing, I will make it to Fukuoka one day.
That is truly the only place I find peace for my restless soul. I will get that back! I will!!