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Everything kinda hit me at once today and I relised quite a few things. In the past 2 years, I've done nothing but fail at everything I've done or tried to do. Last year alone, I lost a job, a chance to get my own apartment, 2 best friends, a shitload of respect, and a bit of my sanity. Not to mention I couldn't hold any kind of relationship for more then 2 weeks at most. This year I lost a chance to start a new life and any chance of making new friends. Now I'm lossing a lot of hope, a friend I hold dearly to me, more sanity, and now my temper.
I really tried to hold any of that back this year just for Chirstmas. I even really tried to get people gifts and stuff, but that either ended up being lost in the mail or put back in my face. Its 4 days away and I don't have a damn thing to show for it. I just feel like I've let everybody I've ever known down. So this is just a big sorry to everyone. Sorry I let you all down.
I'm deleting this journal in one week. I just wanted to make this last post to let everyone know how truely sorry I am.
I really tried to hold any of that back this year just for Chirstmas. I even really tried to get people gifts and stuff, but that either ended up being lost in the mail or put back in my face. Its 4 days away and I don't have a damn thing to show for it. I just feel like I've let everybody I've ever known down. So this is just a big sorry to everyone. Sorry I let you all down.
I'm deleting this journal in one week. I just wanted to make this last post to let everyone know how truely sorry I am.